This is how you upgrade your life

When I was a child, I had a father who’s always leaving me behind. He’s always gone and I’m always seeking for his attention.

Everytime I asked of him to stay and wait outside our ugly comfort-room, he would answer me with an angry voice, he’s always like that. I feel like I’m always unwanted.

I developed my first fear of asking because I will end up being rejected and they would still leave me behind. I still meet those people like my father in the past, but today someone waited for me to finish my thing.

Oh it’s his job, but it was also my father’s job to keep watch on me. I was never wrong, I had the right all along. You know what’s the difference? I never had to ask of him to wait, he waited patiently anyway.

I also met a very caring GD as well, and she waited with me while I’m doing my thing. She kept looking for me while I asked of her to wake me up; but I didn’t sleep at all, I went back ahead of her while she was searching for me. She’s so cool.

It was amazing! Before, it was always me who needed my parents everything, I did not get the support I needed; right now, it’s different. I don’t have to chase anymore. I’m surrounded by amazing people. All the types of people I can only hope for.

It’s when you don’t need them that they just came to you; so don’t need anything. Just be fine being alone. The reason why you’re needing is because you’re not trusting; now you’re free to trust yourself. Just do it.

Trust the process and be happy. Just keep moving forward. Life is a blessing. You just have to upgrade yourself by acknowledging what is now and what is no longer.