After my Solo Trips, “Hiking at Mt. Manunggal” and “Adventures at Danasan Eco Adventure Park”, I felt so motivated to come out, to do more, to achieve more.
Right now, I’m out writing this post. I just woke up and hurried up to check if the “Yellow Corn” seller is still there. ” I missed it again! I’ll check again tomorrow evening!”
Right now, I’ll just process my thoughts and share my thoughts about my journey “Solo Travelling” as well as facing my fears. It’s been years now since I started facing my fears, thanks to the “Pandemic” it helped me come out on my own, just because I had no choice.
I remember visiting Cordova Museum on my own and luckily got entertained by the restaurant owners where I have eaten my lunch. Prior to Odette, I also got the chance to visit “White Mansion” on my own; where I have tasted the best cake and the best coffee ever; it smells so unreal.
JPark Place had a promo on my 28th Birthday and I decided to get in. I had fun recording what’s inside the place, but most of the time, I was just sleeping near the beach; enjoying the view and the fresh air. It’s where I floated without help for the first time. Those bold decisions made me feel proud of me.
As I child, I used to be so dependent to my mother’s decision, my mother’s choices, and my mother’s approval. I lived in self angst just because I couldn’t do what I really wanted to do personally because I was so scared to disobey. I was so scared to be reprimanded. I was always hiding behind her shadow, so afraid of deciding things on my own. I settled to self anger until I started loving myself.
“It’s time for me to stand on my own. I have to decide on my own, take care of the consequences, and work hard. If I want to love myself, I have to learn how to defend myself, so I have to grow; and growing up means taking responsibility”; that’s when I started taking action. Taking responsibility of my own life, instead of depending on others opinions and suggestions.
Getting to know my self, seeing my attitude both negative and positive and opening my heart to accept me for who I am; If I want change then I have to work hard and trust myself by trusting my ideas best suited for me.
Now I’m on the right track; but I still sense people distracting my peace, trying to get my attention just for them to make me a bad person in the end by the time I developed care for them. So, they made you chase after you and they made you the bad guy/girl for not running after.
The truth is, if you’re not going to move forward, it only means you’re being manipulated. To stop the manipulation, you must not show care, not even show anger; ignore them completely even if it felt bad at first. Do the right thing, baby!
Sometimes, you have to act like everything is fine even if it’s not, in order for you to feel at peace and in order for you to achieve your goals; playing dead in war kept you alive, staying still for awhile when in danger kept you alive. Running away is not really a better way, they’ll just chase you like a rat.
You see, I am moving; and I’m staying because I’m loving it there 🐦
See you in one of my adventures! ☺️
Climbing, Rocks! 