Stay, and trust your guides; the lesson I learned from our 4 hours trekking last saturday

Facing my triggers once again, I was in total pain; reminiscing the past with Mr. RS. It was raining and everyone’s having their own groups chitchatting. I looked lonely but I was enjoying the blunts. The guides kept on checking, how are we doing. They even asked if I’d like a glass of wine.

I was laughing at that joke, it was so funny; and I’m so thankful they asked me anyway. Seconds later, a group of two men passed by, on their head were woods; the other guy slipped, his butt may have hurt but his smile says, “Dude, that was funny!” While I said, “Sorry”, with a little sad facial expression.

We get going, the fun had begun. “Just hold the Roots!” “Two meters apart”. Just in case the other person will slide, then the person in front of him/her will be able to dodge. So here we arrived in this yellowish waterfalls due to heavy rain.

Suddenly, I remembered the last time I went on trekking with RS, I can only hear the waterfalls, I have never seen it. Soon as we started rock-climbing, I realized why he chose the easiest way. It was because it was a date not an adventure.

“How sweet!” I have not realized those little things RS did to me, were all so cute. He cares too much and I didn’t even see those. I was too busy doing other things that I have forgotten how to be happy.

Anyway, I just love the idea of being in a date while trekking and in a real adventure where nobody is carrying me but me and the guides. My legs still hurts right now, and night after that after we camped inside the Nipa Hut, just to be safe from getting wet; I couldn’t identify body pain from cold weather.

Surely I remember farting everywhere which makes me decide to just sleep in my hammock, forget about tent; for my comrades sake. I must do what makes me happy, and that’s sleeping in a hammock. “Just stay in your hammock until you’ll finally fall asleep.”

Speaking of staying; I was gonna climb back with those two handsome dudes because I thought I was scared of crossing water, but it’s probably because they’re handsome. I wonder how quickly I changed mind from saying, “We can cross that!” But the rock was fading, the water was rising and the decided to just climb up and waited for us at the other side of the waterfalls; where they helped us climbed up! I was the first candidate and I held both their hands! 😍 Saying, “Thank you!” Wasn’t that obvious?

Anyways, I stayed and followed the guide, I let them lead the way and trust their expertise. We all finished the trail soaking wet from the rain but safe at least. We ate food, we shared umbrellas; that was nice of me. I’m proud to say that I was able to handle my emotions really well that I didn’t let it get in the way.

I never thought how painful it was to be an option, that you see people having their priorities and you’re just the JUST hahahaha. It makes me wanna be with someone who’s going to make me the priority no matter how clingy it can be. I was thinking of that perfect candidate, someone like him would be best. It gave me the courage to keep going because I know he’s gonna be proud of me.

While others say nega, he’s gonna say all the positivity; and that’s totally what I needed in someone. He’s not single, that’s the BIG question mark. But there’s more out there like him, I just have to be patient. So I’ll just stay, stay and trust the process. I have also stayed in the morning. I thought I was going home first, because I still have a work schedule late night.

I stayed and enjoyed the sunrise anyway:

We may have doubts in our abilities and in ourselves, always remember to try no matter the result is. You’ll be put to shame but that’s not really true. Only those who are not capable of trying something new will say that. Only those who are jealous will discourage you to do things that makes you really happy.

Just stay where you are right now. Always know that you’re in the right thing path; let go of those people who have replaced you with someone else’s whom they think is better than you. Move on with your life and stay humble. Remember to stay where your heart wants you to be.

“I’m totally happy with my workmates right now, they’re the most amazing and supportive candidates I have ever met. I would say, it’s the best in the world I have ever been a part of. You know what I am so proud of my teammates. You’re so good to me and I feel so safe with them. We also lift me up. They never made me feel inferior. They are always supportive of me.” So, stay. Claim what is meant to be. Let go of those that hurts you. They’re perfect reminder of how great your life is now with the right people. They’re the best!