This time

This time, I will keep my heart open for me to treat my self fairly.

I will become a balancer for me. I will do it for me. Who else will do it for me. No one else will if not me.

I am a good balancer because I have to be balanced for me to stay mentally fit and healthy.

If I won’t do it, they would either praise me boastfully which I really hated or disrespected me and belittled me which I super duper hated.

This time, I will be fair to everyone. This time money doesn’t matter to me anymore as a measure of treatments.

This time I will respect everyone’s decision hoping that one day they will change. And if they’re not going to change them up then up to them.

This time I will care less about their future, because they can still change, there is always hope as long as there is time.

Someone changed me! I am no longer a rattlesnake, I am more of like a calm humanoid being, walking like nothing happened.