Caught

I always caught watching these people’s acts, it’s not leaving me behind, it’s really disturbing my brain, it makes me feel like, like I am in deep shame.
It’s being put in a mud of feeling unrecognize and rejected.
I stop thinking of the possibilities of seeing them again because it is no longer happening.
Although I am still hoping, that’s all I can really do for now.
The devils tries to bring back the past where they think they’re still the king and queens of hearts.
Families of the sponsors trying to let us feel so down, counting all the blessings their family member have given to us.
It hurts like I am being stabbed by a big sword, have mercy on them but this is how they made me feel like, ever since that day I am having fund.
I hate that day will come that I will keep hearing these voices from these people destructing my psyche, I will fight a good fight, letting the Universe know they’ve been trying to count off everything they have given me. I am hoping that one day I can show myself how grateful I am to have raised myself with my own money.