Rhythm

I woke up happy today, listening to the rhythm, birds chirping, roosters crocking, electric fan swinging, voices of people and vehicle outside of our little place near the new bridge.
I have already decided, to get that place that connect near that new bridge.
Beeze is beautiful, my legs can feel it, she’s happy with it, waves from the ocean, probably fishermen, hoping they’re getting lots of fishes.
Shells everywhere, maybe crabs, lobster, all these yummy food to eat.
Neighbor sleeping outside the house feeling safe, it’s all we really needed.
Love from a distant, cannot be seen by the human eyes, I can only hope it existed.
Trying to connect with them, from here.
The google maps community is amazing, it connects me to some active people around the globe.
I also have amazing perfume community, and a real estate community, not too bad, specially if you will include my childhood town in Mindanao provinces.
I hope I had time before to enjoy with the neighbors, but I have a different journey to take.
I can hear only the rhythms, the earth spinning, helping me with conscious thinking.
It’s special you know, I told my self to remind me every time I feel lost in my mind from the different voices I am hearing, specially from people whose negative comments doesn’t really matter.
A cat is better than them, a beautiful bird and chicken.
But people makes their own disaster, they get so angry and blame others for their heart attacks.
Well for me, I’ll just distant my self, I’m glad social distancing is imposed.
Now I can really be myself, away from the team, not so close to them, different and yet happy to be with.
I may not be from here, I am maybe one with the rhythm, only those that can sing with me will understand the beauty of being different from the rest of us.
I let go of judgements, it is just making me feel like the one, I’d better go on my way and not comment about people.
Whatever the society taught me about bad or good, insecure, jealous, destroyer, whatever bad labels I learned from the people I have been will no longer be entertained, it is just making me feel like one of them.
These negative energies has to be gone as I let go of any thought of it.
It is just really making me crazy, it’s destructing my work, my future, everything. It’s not really helping.
It’s so disappointing that these people are the people who have been helping me in the past.
Disrespecting my own privacy, attacking me of someone else’s mistakes.
Wow! She’s really crazy, shame on her but that made me feel like I am really surrounded by a lot of bullshits.
I am just hoping that one day, I will be able to get my own place, somewhere they don’t exist.
I really wanted peace, even if I am away from them.
Someday I will, this new rhythm will help me heal my psyche.
I have been in Cebu and I was able to detach from them for almost two years and that’s really healing.
My life was at peace, but right now they’re slowly putting it back to that ugly state.
I am hoping that I will be able to really keep myself silent and distant.
I will be able to guide myself back to the right path, where I belong.
No more of these people, I have so much of them, enough of these people, this care has to be lifted up, it is time to return back to the place I once loved. I have to choose myself and my own health, specially mentally, physically and spiritually.
I will own something there, I have already decided to go back there where these type of people won’t really bother going.
They can still attack me and curse me, blame me and abuse me, but I am not going to let that affect me, no more!
They’re just pest in my psyche, they don’t really deserve attention.
I am finally back here, I will be investing myself far from here, away from these ugly people who have been contributing garbages in my energy field.
So if I were you, go back to the province where you can feel healthy and happy, there’s no other place like home.
I might get that place in Davao, it’s the best place so far, only because it is where my friends live.
I have to be surrounded by them, it’s really helping me become well.