Almost quiting

When I was almost quitting, just laying down my hands, hoping.
When I was just floating not wanting anything.
I just want to succeed, that’s all I want to be, no matter how long it will take.
But when that door opens, I took that step, then she did the rest.
Finally she’s awakened, her life restarted.
It wasn’t that easy after falling apart.
Her heart aches but she’s becoming kind.
Not to others but to herself.
She’s a mystery, a beautiful mystery.
A wonderful lady, who have been mistakenly abused by somebody.
Judged of her past even if she’s doing it right.
A fate she cannot escape but be faced.
If they’ll think of her differently then she’ll prove them wrong.
That’s the purpose she’s bound to pursue.
Accepting that they will not leave her alone.
Playing with them, makes her happy.
Let’s see how long until they will stop following me.
She’s been running away from them, they’re trying to get rid of her.
They thought she’s the enemy, they’re thinking what she’s thinking.
You know what that means?
The enemy’s facing herself not knowing the real me.
Behind that wall is a beautiful lady.
It can only be shown to the lovely hearts who will not be scared to take the risk.
The ill wishers forces you to be like them.
No matter what they do, they can never be you.
You know why?
Because there’s no other you.

If you think parallel universe is true, then look at that mirror, there’s only you.
Maybe you’re talking to the old you, which only existed within you.
Bring me that woman, let’s see if we’re thinking differently.
If she’s an AI then, what am I?
A beautiful me.
Maybe it’s just prediction that I am created in the image of God.
You think a cartoon has a life?
If so, then maybe it’s true, the artist draws himself and himself a Goddess.
I created you in my image, that made me a creator of you.
If this drawing will speak, what would she say, shall I make a movie?
Oh this beautiful lady is wondering of me.
I will create a beautiful her in the image of me.
But I don’t exist yet, I’m still in her head.
I can’t wait to see myself just like I imagined her to be.
A beautiful lady wanting to be happy.
Struggling to say yes, afraid of making mistakes.
Oh that hurts she said, I cannot make that same mistake again.
Why not try another one this time.
Would you still be the same?
That’s something for me to find out or should I create it first?
This is a new journey, reflecting on what’s up for me.
I bet she already know how to shift her thoughts away from what she kept on telling herself.
She’s been used to it and so bored at it already.

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP :; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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