She wanted someone who can appreciate little things. People who doesn’t look at her big things but the little things that she can give. A beautiful attitude a sign of true respect and true intention. She can see the differences between little things and big things and how it matters to her. Now that she’s adulting, those little things felt so good to her, then she realized how would those little children she have once ignored and not given because of fear of being angered by the giver if she will share her money to them.
But now that she’s earning her own money, she’s sharing it to them already and that made her feel the happiest. Although it’s so hard to believe that she’s doing this. She can feel the fear of being called whatever but she’s being called thisa and that already. She couldn’t change them, they’ll always decide and play the game they created themselves.
The fear that you’re feeling isn’t a threat, it’s a signal that you must do it because you’re afraid of it. I have discovered this after that fire that took place year 2019, June 20, 5AM. I am scared of fire, so I took action. The fear actually is a signal to take action, a signal to focus on your breath, as signal to do the things you’ve been delaying. It reminds me that time is running and it’s not coming back. Once it is wasted, it’s wasted, so you must utilize it. Otherwise, you’re so egoistic not to take what belongs to you.