Trust only one

Running away, hiding from the crowd, specially of the childhood family that you owe a lot, trying to take away your life, scared to death that you have to get lost like you don’t know what will happen next but you just hope you’ll be back safe, ready to face them, fiery and determined, this time, there’s no running.

Disguising like someone else’s to cover up someone’s identity like they care.
Learned how to be careless and let these people be themselves, they’re crazy how they reacted to my little help.
They thought it was nothing, even if I was already suffering just because I truly care, but how they reacted was bullshit

Wasted so much time, I knew it was a true waste of time, trying to be a hero, protecting someone that’s no longer acknowledging you.
Even not counting on you, blaming you instead of all the shits she’s been to.
As if it was me who’s truly suffering here, in denial of her own, making others believe she’s the best, perfect and could never be wrong, but the truth is that, the old things she’s talking behind your back is actually just her.

Oh well, I have been a victim of her kindness act, falling in it because of my selfish desires to build something great for me first before helping them.
But look their brains, when they see you’re progressing, they’ll be angry and try to pull you down emotionally, giving you problems and lots of problems to make you feel unhappy.
No worries, getting out from their crab mentality is easy, just give them them something that will make them feel at their best.

Giving them what they want while you stay close to them, they won’t really see the progress you have made if you’re not displaying it desperately.
That’s why staying humble, and going with the flow, maintaining your connection and of course keeping yourself in sight.
The moment they’ll think I am going far away having a better day, they won’t stop searching and chasing trying to spoil my day.

Oh she’s good. She’s so good. Caught up in that story, so old, full of lies about someone else, but true to them, so better believe it’s all about them.
Be smart, and hope that you can get out, because while you try changing them and you try caring about them, you get stuck and slowly, before you even realize, you’re already feeling helpless, hopeless, rejected, and of course, you will feel so wrong about yourself.

The truth is that, you already know, it’s out of your control now.
No matter how hard they will try to trigger your care towards them when they started dramatizing, you already know that when you do, you’re bound to be a loser, because they’re not going to change, nor listen, just change your thought and listen to them without taking things personally because the truth is that, they don’t need your advises, it’s nothing, let them figure it out themselves.

Be smart, try not to change them, because they won’t really do it, you’re just wasting your time, your effort, while acting like a fool.
You’re smart, make use of your time doing things great, instead of trying to change someone that won’t really do it.
Your advises will become wasted, because I again, they won’t do it.
Better let them come to you, instead of chasing them and forcing them to do what you think is best for them.

To make this short story shorter, trust your gut feeling.
If it’s against you, when you’re thinking about this man just a waste of time, then it’s true, do something else equivalent to that truth.
Go for the other that you think is good, something you’re also against of doing.
By the way, know that you’re amazing.
Know that you’re on top of this.
Laugh at their comments because that’s what you have been expecting them to.

Published by irose

Hi! I'm Roselyn! Username: irose PayPal (In case you wanna sponsor me I am a life warrior. I have been through shit, running away from my bliss. But I guess, I've had enough that I want to just be myself. *My mother dreamt of something great; I think I am doing it, this time!⛄

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