Things to remember

Last week, I learned so much about the things that I really need to work on.

It was a really good training, it was exhausting on my part due to many changes that happened in my system. I changed from being a person who doesn’t care about my grammar, pronunciation; and most importantly, my sentence construction.

Believe it or not, I grew up a little. I have developed assurance and empathy which gave me more confidence. Now I have to control my voice in order not to sound brutal to my listener.

But, before that; I felt like an idiot and until now I’m still wondering why I was given the chance to join the team. Maybe because I can do it? Or maybe because they see something in me. All I know is that, I was happy during the interview. It felt great to be there. I have finally conquered my fear of speaking up.

Now I’m still wondering, why am I still being allowed to take on the next class. Maybe because I can follow instructions? Or maybe because they see something in me that I can if I chose to. I think everything is really up to me.

If I messed up, I think it’s because I was being my old self; if I’ve changed, it’s because I decided to grow up and change. I still feel stressed due to this rapid change that’s currently happening; and sometimes, I feel like “I’m not good enough” but why did they let me pass?

Remember this when you feel like an idiot:

  1. Change – apply the new ways even if it’s hard.
  2. Do the right thing – it’s really hard to unlearn something old, but you’re safe now because you’re now in the new environment.
  3. Let go and trust your new journey

If you feel like an idiot, then change and be your best self. Be a light to those who weren’t able to see their worth. Remember that you’ve come so far. You have accomplished a lot. Keep going! Keep learning.

Published by irose

Hi! I'm Roselyn! Username: irose PayPal I'm a dreamer, bound to face all my fears, traumas, etc. I have been through shit, running away from my bliss. But I guess, I've had enough that I want to just be myself. *My mother dreamt of something great; I think I am doing it, this time!⛄

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