I’m in pain, I miss my wife (comment if it resonated with you)

I’m in pain, I miss my wife so much.

Please stop acting, please do.

I am in so much pain, my heart is aching.

I don’t know what to do with this.

It is too painful I hope I can bear the pain.

I am so much in pain, I think she knows.

I know she knows.

She’s been unfaithful she’s been sleeping with another man.

She doesn’t want me because I am poor and I am nothing.

She wants someone else who can provide her the world.

She wants someone she can serve.

She wants someone to take money from.

She wants somebody to kill.

She wants to be in anger.

She doesn’t forgive.

She doesn’t forget.

Her fierced eyes anger me.

She’s so angry.

Like that devil she wants to eat me.

I am in so much pain.

I am separating with her.

She doesn’t deserve me.

She wants someone better than me.

Nothing’s wrong with me.

I know nothing, I know I am fine.

I am in so much pain, I have to move forward.

I have to let her go.

I am so angry.

It broke my heart away

Seeing her leave for somebody else’s.

I felt so betrayed, I felt so unloved.

It’s so painful, it’s killing me.

But my friends will have me around.

My wife wants the world, but I only wants her.

I want her to be with me.

I want her to stay with me.

But I am too scared of getting hurt.

I am too scared that she’s just taking my money away.

What if she will take advantage, what if she will ran away.

I don’t want it that way.

I have to change it the other way.

I am here with her, sharing my agony.

I hope she listens, I really hope she does.

I hate this feeling, I really do.

It’s so painful I am fucking my mind.

I’m not sure how to heal, I am not just sure.

My friends are here to comfort me with this pain.

My busy schedules forbids me from healing this thing.

I can only say I’m frustrated I can’t really be with it.

It hurts, it hurts. It hurts so much.

I am moving forward. I know I am.

She’s going back to work now, we have no more time to heal.

I must take this two weeks to let it all out.

I know I must.

I needed help I have to keep it open.

This wound is so fresh it stopped me from thinking.

I have to use my brain, I have to now.

I can’t be like this forever, I have to be myself once again.

I have to let go of this thoughts.

I have to let it go. I must share. I must let them know my fear.

I am so crazy right now, don’t know what to do.

I cannot trust anyone. I feel like I am no one having no one.

I just can’t let them know how I felt about you.

You’ve been dancing with another man.

Somebody told me I have to share my woman with another man.

Who would say yes to that, I do not trust.

I cannot trust.

She’s poor. She’s lazy. She’s ugly. She’s got nothing to say.

I am in so much pain. I really do.

I must end something I thought was real.

We ended up but she kept chasing my way.

She was so upset, I couldn’t stop it.

I have to get her out but I am too scared if they’ll know that I am indeed someone who is not what she wants.

She wants the stars, she wants those she couldn’t have.

I know I am poor, but not very poor.

I am always working on myself.

No matter what I do, no matter how much I pushed through she’s still not making way for me.

She rejected me like I am nothing.

She still looked at me like nothing despite of what I have achieved.

She can’t be satisfied, she can’t be fulfilled.

Maybe it is part of their DNA. I wonder if her family showed this wrong way.

Woman:

I grew up being told that man will just fuck me. Man will just take away my money.

I was told that my man’s family will only kill me.

I was told that I don’t deserve, because I am just poor.

My cousins belittled me like I am just nothing.

Even though I got everything, they still didn’t realize a single thing.

I am amazing, I knew my friends told me so.

But to my family, I am useless.

I am being called a slut by man, unskilled and unimportant.

I was told the world will function without me by their side.

They kept pushing me away.

They kept looking down on me.

I kept helping them, they didn’t realize anything.

Now I am no longer falling in the trap of their own drama because when I have nothing, they acted like they’re forced to give me everything leaving them nothing.

As if I stole it from them.

They’re good in front, too bad from behind.

Although you said it’s not true, I can still feel it like it’s really true.

I have been betrayed. My friends betrayed me.

I have been looking at someone, I am constantly taking away from.

Man: I wanted to be with her, but I’m too scared to loose it all.

The world will no longer accept me for who I am.

I am just too scared, I know I am.

I felt that pain, deep within.

I can smell betrayal just behind.

We’re too close, super close.

We can still be friends, just love your husband will you?

Woman: I’m not supposed to be here, but I am not sure who my husband is.

I returned to the church.

I returned to my friends.

I returned to my family.

I returned to work.

I plan the future.

I’m on my way back to him.

I am heading my way, back to the arms of my first love.

But I have to go through this, I have.

Pain.

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: