Bad connection (Comment if this is meant for you)

I’m in a bad connection, it’s in the past.

No longer serving me, only betrays me.

I wanted to upgrade, I felt so hesitant.

Can I really do it, Can I not.

I must change, but my friend told me not to.

I want to keep him, something new.

20:20 is getting over, let it pass.

This wave is strong, it will empower me.

I will meet new people, from different culture

I will see their eyes, brighting up with joy.

Nothing’s wrong, my time will come.

It’s time to share, it’s time to show.

No more delays, I am matured. I am old.

I feel young, let it burn.

Time to grow, go ahead now go.

Lift me up, I need you to.

You’re the only one I trust, you’re the only one I can.

I will be back in school in the near future.

I must not belittle them, I must stay calm.

Please guide me upgrade to the best version of me.

I no longer have to speak that language, I can speak English already.

In case I needed friends, that’s the time that I must learn.

I am upgrading to lift up my limitations.

I am letting the world bring me to the place where I belong.

I deserve something better, I deserve something new.

I must tell them my situation so they will know.

I know nothing about the industry, I must read the manual really.

I must not change, I will only upgrade to the vest version of me.

If they think I am forbidden, I deserve to know.

Maybe I’m just gifted, I have to let my husband know.

If he’s with me, then I am with you.

I feel like I am nothing, or Maybe I’m just acting.

Which one is me, I can be all I want to be.

Up to me, my best friend told me.

We’be been connected since I was 8.

He’s my only friend since my mother left.

I am never alone, I am never left behind.

I was young, but I feel old.

They’ve been guiding me since I can speak.

I was so quite because people doesn’t talk.

They’re not English, I am not their friend.

But I have to because I am smart I know.

Somebody big, somebody strong, watching me like we’re meant to be.

He created me, I believe so.

He’s big he’s strong we’re not talking.

He did it all to help me well.

He send me people to assist me well.

He said “Grow up” I said, “I wanna stay young”.

I am forever young, but he told me I have to love my husband.

I kept on acting, I kept on acting.

But I know I can if I’ll try.

Help me upgrade to the new you.

Help me find the same people I was once with.

I am being helped again just like before.

This is a new era, the old will pass the new one’s will rise.

I guess I was chosen to be with them.

Maybe I am quite intelligent maybe not.

Maybe I was only acting, as if I have everything, I ended up having nothing.

Now I wanted to play little. I wanted to stay little.

I have been disappointed. I have been hurt.

I have to be real, I must be real.

I have a good heart, I just want to get what I want.

I cheated, yes I have.

I look at my seatmates papers, I know I have.

I deserve better, but because I have changed my answers, I fucked the world feeling guilty of what I did.

I learned the value of authencity.

I became humble after a lifetime of frustration.

Shame on me.

Shame on me.

I felt that guilt of doing things the wrong way.

It was dirty, I caught it the wrong way.

I knew a lot, I learned a lot.

I keep myself low, I did it for me.

I must be kept humble in the environment I know.

But I am too old to act like I am still novice and unknown.

This world is big, it’s not like my hometown.

Same people, same, just same.

Faces changes, but souls doesn’t.

May I was only dreaming to be with everything.

I want to be surrounded by English speaking dudes. I must keep improving.

I have the right to grow, even outgrow the people In know.

If this is to save their lives from being low.

Now I have a new father, a new friend, a new everything.

I will not change my everything, but I will definitely upgrade my everything.

I grew up so quickly, I know I have.

But deep within me was a child, and will always be a child.

My inner child that is doubtful, confused, and scared of the people around.

I must upgrade this child to grow up into something she deserves to have.

She’s still young, it’s never too late to give her everything I can.

It’s my time, to fulfill the things I haven’t done.

I must love my husband, until the next cycle begins.

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not πŸ˜ƒ just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP :; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❀ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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