Shame

A past reality, not done by me, it’s burried in my DNA.
Guilt runs through my blood, stained by dirty hands.
A part of me that must be healed, needed to be accepted.
It’s been here all along, fear comes from nothingness.
I lost my sight, I don’t want to see, I hate reality.
Psychologically, it is being done purposely.
Shame’s intensity is too tense for me, it’s killing me.

Same people keep running after me, they sensed something or someone that’s not really me.
I want to escape, but I can also ignore, attitude is a choice, it’s not a crime.
As long as it is not taking action, I am okay and fine.
That makes me think of putting myself in a martial arts school.
Defending myself from the old people I fear physically.
A trauma that runs in my memory, it stems from my old reality.

Shame on me, but I can also shine on me.
I’ll be my light, I’ll be my best friend in times of troubles like this.
Let’s see where it goes, let’s see how to handle this.
Fear is a big threat, to move forward to this new journey.
I am on my way to this new reality, a different world, only 1% dare to see.
It sounds scary, but not really, when you’re already there, you will be guided thoroughly.
So don’t be scared everybody, go where your heart goes but don’t forget to listen to your instincts.
Girl instincts are mostly true, I have been there, that mental trap sowed by somebody.
I knew the pattern, I am laughing at them.

Shame on me, but I choose to shine on me. I can’t be defined by anybody, my choice is my reality.
They’ll only be wronged if they’ll judge me so early.
Showing themselves and who they want to be, pretending it’s someone else, denying themselves because it’s so much to bear.
Acting as if they’re someone else to make themselves feel better.
Shame on me, it’s kinda part of me, I can change myself but there’s no way I can change them.

So what now my dearest shame? You wanna dance with me? I will sing for you, so stop chattering when I am not thinking. It’s not really helping.
Sharing helps, it reduces shame. It’s no longer taking control over my everything.
I busted shame, do you still have time to blame?
Fear me not because I am your master, how dare you keep trying it.
But of course you will not know failure unless you will try it. It’s going to hurt, I hope you’re ready for this.
Same goes with success, you will not fully experience it unless you’ve decided to try it, are you ready for this?

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not πŸ˜ƒ just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❀ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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