Nobody listens, I am echoing.
My anger is at its peak it is being ignored.
I hated it when they do such a thing, I wanted them to be this and that.
But there’s no way I can make them who I want them to be.
So I choose to be that person I want me to see.
Standing in that mirror is an image, with that personality that I really want to see.
Almost perfect for me.
Though it’s hard to be that person I want everyone to be.
Atleast I am going to try to do it for my self.
I may not have a perfect mother, nor a perfect cousin, neither a perfect uncle nor a perfect brother, not even a perfect friend, all of us sucks.
I may not have that perfect family that surrounds me.
But I have me who can be that person I want them to treat me.
I am so happy that I am slowly giving myself freedom.
I am so happy that I have become the opposite of them.
I will respect myself and become a best sibling to me.
Someone that will listen and allow changes to fullfil her needs.
That’s what she mostly needed.
They’re may not be enough time left, but she really needed it, so I have to adjust and become faster for her own sake.
It’s a little bit harder, but I guess I can master it.
Even if I didn’t make it the first time, there’s still another chance.
They kept giving me chances and I know I will treasure it.
From the very start I have been helped.
Buddhas listening to those prayers, I just want to be free from those judgements they have, a false representation of my true self.
Now is the time to be myself, I am too tensed I need to relax to make it happen.
My friend told me, “We have no time, we have to relax.” Then he asked me, “Do you have a schedule?”