Jealousy

Jealoused by adults for the little achievements she achieved. Blamed by parents for their shortcomings.

Growing up like that seems like a mess. In fact, it is. You just have to figure out how to handle it.

Cousins who looked at you fiercer eyes, cursing you, hoping you don’t exist, they could have been very successful by now instead of you.

Every move, every words they say is against you. They cannot see something good that’s happening to you, not because they’re blind but because they closed their eyes, rather thought of the bad things they knew about you, to lower your self esteem and for you to feel unsupported by them.

There’s nothing you can do about them, but you can do something about yourself. Figure out how to handle such insecurities. Living on your own terms trying not to impress them.

The negas won’t be pleased by any success you have achieved. It’s not because you aren’t good enough, but it’s because they already made a choice.

The power of choice can either hurt the world or heal it. There are reasons behind their choices, the other one is based on anger and the desire to take revenge, while the good side of it is a desire to make their dreams come true through the Youngs who can make it happen, while moving forward doing things that they can, trying things they think they cannot do. Most of the time, you’ll be surprised how good you actually are.

Buying stuffs for other kids isn’t really my thing, nor buying stuffs for adults, it’s because I hated how those people supported my needs, obviously not doing it because they wanted it, but because they care about what other people would say if they don’t. So the way they’re giving it away isn’t really because they’re happy. That’s why, they’re jealous of me and they couldn’t help it. Full of regrets that I became who I am today, when it could have been them.

Well, they thought it was easy to achieve something. They forgot to give me credits to my own little achievements. They took all the credits just because they have contributed a little bit of it, which can be paid of course.

Now here I am, fighting my fears of wrongly giving gifts to others aside from my self. It may not be me who gives, but it’s a friend who will and I’m just right here, supporting that good intention, making it happen.

At least, I am not discouraging her not to do it just because I am against it. Instead, I helped and I am so proud of it.

I have enjoyed the whole thing of helping her choose those toys, with the receiver in mind. Considering what he might want and if the gift is going to influence the child the right way.

I insisted she must choose a car, so that one day, when this child grows up, he would want to own his own car. It’s like toys are just helping them practice what’s the future awaits.

With the approval of the original giver, her friend, it happened and I am one of the happiest. Buying stuffs with the receiver in mind was never an environment I grew up with. They just buy stuffs because they like it for themselves, without putting their foot on the shoes of the receiver. They thought I was very happy because they give me those stuffs that they like for themselves, well, they should be, not me, but I’ll give back anyway. So, no bitterness attached. Well, of course, doing it the hard way. Giving back bread in return of their stones.

But what we did was amazing. I am so proud I went. At least I have contributed an idea, acted like a sales lady, and totally forgot what’s the other side of the story.

All we knew is that, we did it because we want someone happy. Although, yeah, I was very futuristic, I almost didn’t consider the babies age. Good thing she’s a baby friendly, I mean they all are. Oh well, I like everything they’ve chosen for the receiver.

But what delighted me the most is this little piano.

Yes! Finally, and we hope that he will become a good musician in the future. He will create combination of notes and make it into a song. I am so happy that she bought that, we both like it.

The other gifter chose a car, so we both like it. The other one chooses an animal with long neck, and I am not against it.

The other giver, we all decided it, it’s so much fit on his age.

All in all, it was a very wonderful journey, our hope your hearts felt satisfied with our babies gift.

I personally feel so delighted, I mean obviously, I would have like to have those toys as a kid, and because I am now an adult, I will just rejoice with the Youngs and give them the gifts I hope I had while I was their age.

I guess, I healed my phobia of giving. I thank you so much my friend for allowing me to join with your shopping. I was really having fun! Until next time..

If you want to give your child gifts? I have a list of gifts collected through amazon store. I will be earning through that page, so I gave my best to offer you the best choices I have.

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I personally choose these products.. I have my own reasons and I will give my personal thoughts of each product on my next blogs. Stay tune..

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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