The Past is Dead: End of Confusion

This is what my Mother mean when she said, “I died”. I couldn’t believe it at first because she’s alive and supporting us in her own terms. ( I am quiet thankful and grateful now, but only recently when I finally started giving back to her in my own terms too.)

She did die, but not physically but emotionally and mentally dead. She moved on from the past relationship she had with my father and every people in the past, lived her life as a single person and totally forgot about the past. It was crazy, at first I couldn’t understand, but I guess I already have.

This is the same story with the Jesus dying on the cross but he’s still alive watching us right? I will call her Jesus Like in connection with my previous article. After all, she’s been watching me growing up and she never said no when I needed her help the most. It’s just that, she’s no longer the mother I used to have. It’s totally dead and I just couldn’t accept it. She became a new person, not a mother, not anymore but kind of like a guardian angel. OMG it’s so weird.

She’s a supporter of truth and honesty, so she’s probably not going to kill me if she will know about these thoughts about her, after all it’s the truth. She’s no longer a mother since the past is dead, and because I have a self that is also from the past, it’s also dead, then I am a new person which makes me no longer her daughter. Sounds like she’s telling the truth after all.

Okay, she’s not my mother fine. Like who cares if she is or she’s not. It’s called “Her Choice* and I am now the “Enlightened One” because I have finally understood what she meant about being dead. Oh well, therefore I must not feel guilty for being a new person to her because again the past is dead and I must put an end to this through peace and acceptance. The past is never coming back, the mother that I knew will never return, therefore .. oh well, I did changed already. I have chosen a new mother since that day she left, my stepmother. She cooked now and it’s a good thing.

Sounds like a continuation of the mother I never had. But because I am a grown up child-like creature, I decided to leave home and be with this woman who were once my mother, died with the past and and lived like a new person who cares. But the problem was, I was still getting those memories of her being an adult to me, harsh like a tiger! And I just can’t accept before that she acted like younger than me. It wasn’t what I was expecting of her and I’m a bit disappointed. It’s because that time, I still haven’t accepted that the past is dead and I didn’t like her as a friend. She’s a bad influence. What made me feel so emotional is when I think of my mother as a bad influence to me because I looked at her like a mother figure, but she’s actually not my mother anymore but someone who just exist not as a mother but someone else.

Oh that was a whole lot of confusions but I’m finally okay now. It’s decided, promise, I can see the rightful mother and father. And it’s my stepmother and my father; not those who claimed to be my parent just because I’m already doing great. Char 👅.

Wow, I just created an epilogue for a beautiful story.

Enjoy Reading!

The End..

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP :; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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