Taking Risk Mentality

When I was young, I was told that my mother’s dead (same with left us) so I believed it. Mourning wasn’t an option for me. At a young age, I had to decide if I go to school or not. I had to make decisions for my 4 year old brother. I had to choose the right people who can take care of him while I’m at school.

At age 8-10 until now I experienced depending on my self, observing others, seeing the difference and doing what I believe is right. I have a very keen observation skills. I learned to read people’s mind and their next steps since I was young. I am gifted with such a gift that I knew what to do in order to win against their plans.

Everything comes with a risk. I do not need someone’s approval, but since I met someone who act like a mother I had to act like a needy person just to make them feel useful. In return, I suffered from depression. Oh it’s hard to act dependent when in fact we can do it all without them.

All those acts was a waste of my time, it went on for 10years, they belittled me for acting dependent to my mother figure, she acted like my victim, like I used all her money for school and she gets nothing in return. Her close family hunts me like a thief, disliked me like I am not welcome to my own mother’s home.

She acted like an angel in front of me, helping me, like I’m abandoned and I have no grandparents waiting for me to come home. Like I had no father who cares about me while I was back home. She make people she knew believed in her lies about me and that made me feel insecure, like my life is a lie and that I do not really exist.

Well, it’s the truth, I only start existing soon as I woke up from the truth. I only start existing that time I went back home. Oh I had friends waiting for me. I had cousins and neighbors who were there for me. They’re all so kind to me. They all knew me and brother because my father was known in my town for being a friendly citizen who dated lots of girls including married once. He’s ashamed of it by the way, but I told him, “it’s not only you..” me too… 🤣 just kidding. I haven’t dated married people yet, not as far as I know.. if they’re lying about their status, then it’s not my fault.

Waking up from the lies they told me was a big relief, though it freezes a part of me, I stopped existing like my cousin did. Our parents are brainwashers, they are all narcissist who wants to enslave us, to follow their false beliefs and make us feel guilty for being our true selves. Threatening us with death, karma and abuses.

Oh well, thanks to that, I learned to face it all and challenging them to see who’s going to receive it first. Oh well, I have proven myself cool, happy and alive without them and no false brainwashing will ever shit on me. I knew one by the way, acting like a mother to make us believe in lies. Guess what, it’s funny, specially when you show them your real self, they’ll feel outsmarted and it’s so amazing. “Don’t me” according to Ms. Ellen. Not me, I’ve been there, I learned my lessons, so I know how to handle bullshits. I learned to trust in my guts and will decide to do what is right, again it’s a risk and it always turned right. It works magic all the time since I was young.

My advise, if we feel stuck? Let’s Move on, and take the risk of doing something new. Accept what’s no longer working and just move on with what we can do. Live at this moment and let the future decide for itself. The reason why people are stuck in fear and doing something unnecessary it’s because they don’t trust enough. They took action out of fear. They did not have fun because again they’re afraid and not so relaxed.

No matter what happened, when you are being tested, please don’t cheat. I always remind myself to not cheat because I was trained not to. My 7 months training will go to waste if I won’t apply it. It’s a life-changing training that I went through. Subconsciously, I was being programmed beautifully thanks to my caregiving teachers. I am a proud product of their program.

“Mind games is funny and I like it, so let’s keep it going. Mind over matter my friends,” Me

Published by Pinky Rose

I am a graduate in Business Administration major in Management Accounting but I'm not really practicing it 😁 It made me sound cool and I loved it. Although, I am still working with one of the most prestigious financial company in the entire Universe 👍. But I will become a Certified Broker before I turn 40. I decided to take up Commerce before because it was something new to me; the mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology now; a psychiatrist and I am my first patient 🤫, it's so natural to me; they're soldiers too, but I wasn't allowed to take the exam the last time I applied for PAF because of my myopia. The father side are into politics, I could have taken political science but it wasn't offered at my University back then but if it was offered, I still wouldn't get it because it's expensive and I was only a scholar back then; but mostly, on my father side, they're teachers. My father is a good farmer, I hope I can offer him something very important. He doesn't like school he choose to help his parents when he was young. He doesn't like school; he likes women 😂 and my mother likes men 😂, I mean, they liked dating more than putting themselves to school for whatever reasons, I don't believe it; they could have done it if they only choose it. I ended up pursuing the new way where it doesn't follow any of them; I can feel how they looked down at my parents because they haven't finished anything; they never stopped destroying them until my family's broken. So me, I graduated in Business Administration in which none of them have pursued; I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity. I am also into writing because they're not really into writing. I am into dancing because these people don't really dance. Singing is my natural born talent 😂 but I'm just kidding. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help spread good vibes. I am becoming successful in this kind of business, I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted, yes I am. I am beautiful inside and out, charot. I am a goal-oriented person. I am passionate in writing. I am passionate in sharing. I am in love in all new things. I am in love with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. I have great success in my academic side, my friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements to help me attract more of it 🤣. It's a mind trick. I have a good voice. I have a good sense of humor. I have passion. I have compassion. I have an attitude of gratitude. I have friends who's always with me in my ups and downs. I have an acting mother coz she likes acting dead, her broken-heart is dead 🤣 I have great support from the angels. I have a best friend who communicates with me telepathically. I have an eye in music and arts. I love to cook for me. I love to tell good news. I love to be of help. I love to help but not too much. I love to heal. I love to dance. I love to laugh. I love BTS. I love happy memories. I love new experiences. I love first time experiences. I love travelling. I love taking pictures of me and my coalleagues. It's called selfie 😛. I love being me, childish around close friends but I little distant with new acquaintances, I have trust issues 😂. I love to contribute. I love to appreciate. I love to be of service. I love to work lightly. I practice tarot card reading; but actually, I just listened to them, I can learn from listening. I practice song writing, but these days I watch Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor. I practice poem writing but I also stopped coz sometimes it's just boring. I don't care if you will bless me. I don't Care if you will love me and accept me for who I am and what I am not. I don't care if you will marry me or not but I hope you will, haha. I love wearing hanbok but I don't really have one. I don't care if you will praise me or not. I don't care, your choice! I will still be happy no matter what; even if it's just a joke. Aside from that, I really love Photography 🤭

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