Taking Risk Mentality

When I was young, I was told that my mother’s dead (same with left us) so I believed it. Mourning wasn’t an option for me. At a young age, I had to decide if I go to school or not. I had to make decisions for my 4 year old brother. I had to choose the right people who can take care of him while I’m at school.

At age 8-10 until now I experienced depending on my self, observing others, seeing the difference and doing what I believe is right. I have a very keen observation skills. I learned to read people’s mind and their next steps since I was young. I am gifted with such a gift that I knew what to do in order to win against their plans.

Everything comes with a risk. I do not need someone’s approval, but since I met someone who act like a mother I had to act like a needy person just to make them feel useful. In return, I suffered from depression. Oh it’s hard to act dependent when in fact we can do it all without them.

All those acts was a waste of my time, it went on for 10years, they belittled me for acting dependent to my mother figure, she acted like my victim, like I used all her money for school and she gets nothing in return. Her close family hunts me like a thief, disliked me like I am not welcome to my own mother’s home.

She acted like an angel in front of me, helping me, like I’m abandoned and I have no grandparents waiting for me to come home. Like I had no father who cares about me while I was back home. She make people she knew believed in her lies about me and that made me feel insecure, like my life is a lie and that I do not really exist.

Well, it’s the truth, I only start existing soon as I woke up from the truth. I only start existing that time I went back home. Oh I had friends waiting for me. I had cousins and neighbors who were there for me. They’re all so kind to me. They all knew me and brother because my father was known in my town for being a friendly citizen who dated lots of girls including married once. He’s ashamed of it by the way, but I told him, “it’s not only you..” me too… 🤣 just kidding. I haven’t dated married people yet, not as far as I know.. if they’re lying about their status, then it’s not my fault.

Waking up from the lies they told me was a big relief, though it freezes a part of me, I stopped existing like my cousin did. Our parents are brainwashers, they are all narcissist who wants to enslave us, to follow their false beliefs and make us feel guilty for being our true selves. Threatening us with death, karma and abuses.

Oh well, thanks to that, I learned to face it all and challenging them to see who’s going to receive it first. Oh well, I have proven myself cool, happy and alive without them and no false brainwashing will ever shit on me. I knew one by the way, acting like a mother to make us believe in lies. Guess what, it’s funny, specially when you show them your real self, they’ll feel outsmarted and it’s so amazing. “Don’t me” according to Ms. Ellen. Not me, I’ve been there, I learned my lessons, so I know how to handle bullshits. I learned to trust in my guts and will decide to do what is right, again it’s a risk and it always turned right. It works magic all the time since I was young.

My advise, if we feel stuck? Let’s Move on, and take the risk of doing something new. Accept what’s no longer working and just move on with what we can do. Live at this moment and let the future decide for itself. The reason why people are stuck in fear and doing something unnecessary it’s because they don’t trust enough. They took action out of fear. They did not have fun because again they’re afraid and not so relaxed.

No matter what happened, when you are being tested, please don’t cheat. I always remind myself to not cheat because I was trained not to. My 7 months training will go to waste if I won’t apply it. It’s a life-changing training that I went through. Subconsciously, I was being programmed beautifully thanks to my caregiving teachers. I am a proud product of their program.

“Mind games is funny and I like it, so let’s keep it going. Mind over matter my friends,” Me

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm and have me instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother (It's a shame) 😅 Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing; all of these makes life a funny adventure. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal development business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. Char - It will start with me 😊. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to learn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influential people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. 😂 No just kidding. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values or you can keep thus page for your self 😁

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