I met someone; he always made me feel like an option, because I made myself available and everyone’s busy to be with him; but when they’re all available for him, he made me the least of the priority because he knew I’ll always be around him, clinging when noone’s watching; pity, isn’t it.
But you know what, this is how I learned to value the people who cares for me; those who’s always open for me, accepting me for what I am, willing to provide when I am in need and no excuses.
I met people who are not really into me and I went on chasing after them, while there are people desperately needing my presence and my attention, prioritizing me, amongst others and got ignored.
Sometimes, you have to check on your connections; who’s making you feel prioritized and not left behind and those who does not and are happy to see you go; make it for the better.
I hate it when I am being an option, so I seek out those people who makes me their priority; who will check on me first before others and who is not scared of whatsoever. But above all else, I will prioritize my own happiness over others, because it’s the right thing to do.
To be an option is kinda lonely; I better be a lone wolf and happy than be with someone who prioritizes others while me prioritizing him. It’s the worst self torture ever; so better prioritize yourself before others, including the people you are currently prioritizing; it’s called self respect.