I have grown, I know I am. I learned to accept my mistakes, learned from it and I became better and better every time I’m corrected! I am lucky and so blessed, supported and cared! I realized that “the thing” I’m running away from is going to bring me to my destination. So, if you feel like running away, scared, etc.; stay! Allow yourself to face it just once and then let it change you for good.

See the magic! Believe! Just do it!

I just want to share that I appreciate those who check on me not because they have personal problems but because they care about me if I’m doing just fine. It felt great to have someone to check on you, it really does. I’m so thankful and grateful that I have finally met those people! A dream and a desire that I have been waiting ever since.

Life is full of surprises, let go of what’s holding you back because most of the time it ain’t true. Finish writing, don’t let your critical thoughts stop you from hitting publish! You’re doing things not to impress but to learn and grow; your old self is your enemy not anybody. People will show you that version of you and you must take ownership, reflect and change for good, if necessary.

“Everytime I’m corrected, I am growing!” Nothing more interesting than this!”

Writing may not be for me but it will definitely guide me into seeing and meeting the best in me. When you write, you’ll remember things; people you’ve met that helped you grow, nice people you’ve met on all your little adventures within your island or outside of it. All those little smiles and little help matters.

Remembering how you have come this far is the best medicine when you feel like giving up on your journey. Always be thankful to those people who inspires and helps you grow. Always be thankful to those people who listens and those who gives the best advises. In return, give the best advises too, not everyone follows, not everyone believes.

Be the best version of you, not everyone sees, not everyone cares. “Do it for yourself,” that’s the advise I got from Marquis. “You’re amazing, you’re fine.” If someone made you think you’re not, think again. Remember to always think again and see the point, find value in everyone’s action. Most of the time they simply care too much.

Be thankful instead, because you’re over-cared, meaning you are important to them. If it annoys you, then simply ignore but always remember that “they care.” Think again! Whenever you’re upset of the situation, think again. Well, speaking of thinking again, I found out why nothing worked out in my previous relationships:

“I was young and not ready to commit; I was simply making friends and getting to know the world; someone who wants travel and adventure.” It didn’t worked because I wasn’t ready.

“I only want to impress but not to take it seriously; I was only playing but is not ready to take responsibility of my action. I was young and confused. It was only right to be rejected.” It wasn’t for me, it’s for someone else’s, or else I wouldn’t have played.

“I was in pain and needing refuge. I was lost and misguided. I have not decided, I was floating and just allowing someone to decide but we’re not on the same boat. We’re both healing and we’re both broke.” It was only right to separate ways, or else we’ll both sink.

“I was not ready, not planning of anything, always dreaming; not taking the first step to make a difference. I was figuring out what I really wanted in life.” It was only right to let him go.

“I was ready but was forced and disrespected.” I deserve someone better. It was only right to say “NO” in the end.

“I was only playing and having fun.” It was only right to be rejected once again.

Whenever I get serious, the result is also amazingly serious. Leaving for good is serious. Starting a new career is also serious. Loving myself and accepting all my craziness is also serious. Once I have decided, it’s also serious.

In the past, I suffer a bit like a Martyr, hoping someone to change or something to change. I’m telling you, if you won’t change your mind, nothing will change. Leaving will change them and it will help you find the right people who deserves your time.

I know that you care about them, that’s why you stayed; but they don’t care. Haha. So please, learn from that lesson, go out there and do what makes you happy! Achieve your dreams. Make it happen! They don’t need your care? They’re capable! Stop the act! Stop acting needed because you’re not. Some people are just acting dumb to make you feel needed. Move on! Find your happiness! Face the truth and keep growing!