I’m a fan of honest people now. It’s hard to be honest specially if that truth holds a huge power for others to hurt you. Emotional triggers were the worst so far but everytime I face the SHAME and everytime I’m done with it, I rise and congratulate myself for finally letting it go.
It’s really hard to accept the truth specially if the truth is quite obvious, and if I will hide and deny it, it will only stop good things from flowing; like a blockage that needs to be accepted so that it will come out naturally. You are responsible of your own life, you decide which thoughts to keep and which one to let go.
Sometimes, it’s not always because of you; many times, it’s because of them. Learn to thank them because they never leave you behind; they’re always around watching you from a distant. So whenever you felt alone, remember that you’re not. Someone out there watching you shine, cheering for you, congratulating you silently. I learned it from Pau to Kim. Silently adoring her from behind.
Remember that the loudest cheer is not the noisiest; the loudest cheer is the most silent. I wanted to meet someone who is quietly observing and smiling for my little progress. Let go and let yourself grow; embrace change and allow change to shape you into the best version of you. Surprises are the best.
Maybe you want to deny something about you because you hate change, it’s a lot of work to do; but deep inside you knew it’s always been the right thing to do. If you need a push and an approval, remember to push yourself harder; trust yourself and approve/allow yourself to roam around. The discouragements of others doesn’t apply to you because they only give you advises based on how much they knew about you. They don’t know the REAL you.
Sometimes you have to show them without expecting anything in return; just give your all and move on. As long as you did your best, no regrets. If it’s uncontrollable, so be it. If there’s something you can do, do it next time, learn from your mistakes; if there’s none, accept it. Accepting defeat is accepting success. So keep moving on and keep on going; keep your heart open. Keep loving, keep forgiving but never let your guard down.
My greatest fear is being DENIED and cancelled, so I refuse to accept the truth so that I won’t feel denied. It’s not only shameful, it’s also painful. It takes a lot of courage to trust specially if it was once broken, but did you know that when something is broken, something is also coming. It’s like the old you has been shattered and a new you has come out; like you have given birth to a wise and knowledgeable you.
Come out my child, don’t let the cruelty of the world scare you; you are a queen and a humble servant. You are loved and protected. Demons ran away from you, because you knew them wholeheartedly. Don’t be scared to step into the new world, let go of your old beliefs that will no longer be applied in the new age. Show them your best self and know that you’re fine. No one is jealous, everyone celebrates!
Accept your new self, let go of the rest; no need to hold back, know that you’re guarded. No need for others because you have your angels. No need for others approval because you can allow yourself to be and do. You are now a mother, who gives approval; not a child who needs protection, constant push and affirmation. Know thyself and the rest doesn’t matter.
Climbing, Rocks! 