The last time I ran in a marathon was really life-changing. I had to finish the race without cheating because it’s my goal to finish that 21k run, year 2024. I felt the shame of the possibility of not being approved of my request to take that leave but it was granted anyway and it was the best feeling in the world.
“Wow, thank you!”
That marathon was the best of all the marathons I have joined since I started year 2015. I have witnessed proposals and dedication. I can see the power of perseverance and honesty. I am so proud to have finished that race fairly.
Even if I had to finish it the hard way, I did not gave up despite the pain and the shame that I have to endure. I have accepted defeat and I was enjoying every step that I took, without expecting anything. If I will finish it on time and I’ll have a medal then fine; if not, then fine. I wasn’t expecting the medal, but it was granted anyway. I was very happy despite the pain and shame of being called weak because I had to remove my shoes and run on foot. You know why? Pain!
But in that marathon, I was captured dancing and it was a dream came true! I wanted to see myself dance, I wanted to see myself being acknowledged and supported. The pain and the shame was replaced with so much joy and happiness. I did it on my own but I wasn’t alone. I was joined with the armed forces of the pH, the medics, the rest of the runners!
2025 is going to be big because I’m aiming for 32km run! It’s going to be a lonely run without someone around, so I really hope someone is going to join me. Anyway, the pattern goes on and on. Not expecting anything and finally getting the medal I really wanted to get as my reward felt like I won a lottery.
I’m a type of person who needs to push myself harder inorder to feel relaxed, happy and feeling successful! Despite the hardship, I will keep on going. I may rest, but quitting is not an option. So I’ll keep on pushing alone, no matter how hard it is.
If I have to cry, then I’ll cry. I really appreciate those that spend time putting up with me and caring for me; people who never made me feel “Not good enough” or “Stupid”. To those who kept on bothering my silence, “It’s your choice” but you’ll see me soaring up high like an eagle.
People who are against me and shaming me, bullying me of my obvious imperfections doesn’t deserve my energy nor my attention. I guess being professional towards them is the only solution I can think of. Going down to their level of understanding is not a wise thing to do. So as much as possible, stay distant from them, protect your peace.
Vulnerability is really challenging. You must be ready to confirm the truth, and if they’ll bully you then it’s none of your business. Only stupid people bully honest people. Just let them go, and don’t waste your time with them; you can do it on your own anyway and you have proven it many times already. Choose the right people to entertain or be with.
Climbing, Rocks! 