I will dance everyday to heal me, to face my shame and to break free from them.
I will do it for me, in order to heal. I will have that rituals everyday. It will help me face my sad reality.
My mother was physically abused by her immediate family. A brother she trusted the most dragged her like his ownership.
She’s with the psychopath, I have mercy over her. She was being laughed at, molested and threatened.
She felt like she can’t come out from that laugh and red eyes she’s been scared about.
I can see it through me because I have her DNA. Even if she will not tell them truth, I will still knew it. I will always will.
I am staying away from the offsring of her family. Even if she changed her identity back to their own last name.
I will be staying away from them mentally. We will be so close but so far away. That’s the truth of crazy family.
I will face my shame, coming out from this pain. This reality sucks, it always does. No wonder she’s stuck trying to hide the truth from them.
She’s still stuck within her own family. I can feel it within me, because that’s also me. Right now, but it’s no longer to stay, because I will do, what my mother cannot do.
I will show her how to do it. I will make sure she learn from me. They will only see me leaving effortlessly. They’re wondering how breakthrough from that pain.
BTS help me keep it on. That’s why I will didicate to them my future songs. I will be happy to take on this gratitude journey.
Now that I have the reason to keep dancing for me to keep healing. Healing this mental abuse replacing it with a new song and a new pattern.
Lisa of blackpink introduces me to the song Attention. That song made me feel so strong. Now I can replace that psychopathic song, the memory of her abusive family, from the song attention that makes her feel happy.
That’s also me, I’m also suffering the same pain and trauma as well as confusion that she’s been through before. But I will get rid of them mentally, within me.
No more running away, no more fear of being mentally be abused nor physically abused. I will get rid of them away from my mind.