It’s not that I am selfish, I just want to do it for myself first.
So that I will have more than enough then when I help.
But that was before, I realize that time can be shorter for people.
My cats died so easily, people can so too.
It happened to my brother and I felt so bad about it, but I am going to accept it anyway.
It’s okay, as long as my brother is okay.
I will be doing things right, I know I can make it right.
That’s always my goal. A little twist will be done.
I will be helping them now, because if not now then when.
I have to provide them as a gift, and a little help.
I will be giving them food and I will be sharing my food and things with them as well, selfishness is over.
But I will still be doing things for me.
Everything I’ll do it for me.
That’s not selfishness if I have to share it with them anyway.
I will be working and earning more money for me, so that I will become financially independent.
I always wanted to be financially independent.
I always wanted to be able to live in my own house.
I always wanted to have the right to decide for my bills, for decorations, for people to connect with etc.
I’ll keep it open for me.
I’ll keep it open for me to be blessed in all my ways.
I’ll keep it open for me to keep on giving and receiving from others.
No matter enemy would say, I will keep it open for me.
Even if it smells bad already, I’ll just keep it open and clean everyday.
My heart will also be kept open because my feelings for me and others must also be kept open.
No matter how ugly these people who are still looking up to me, I will still keep it open for me and others to be blessed.
I don’t have to close it, I will just turn my attention to others who are there to accept me for who I am.
The Lord Jesus accepts me for who I am and what I am. I will keep it open for others to accept me for who I am and where I have come from.
I will keep it open for me to be accepted for being who I am, for whatever these people are charging me.
I will let everyone know how they kept putting me back to shame.
I will no longer fear. I will keep my heart open for people to see me for who I am.
I will also let them see how my family and relatives treated me so that they will be able to decide to reprimand these people for treating me inappropriately.
I will let them see what they’ve done to me.
The heavens will see it, the highest realms will see it.
Let’s see what they have to say. All I have to do is to keep it open for them to see me.
I am being watched from above, they have been listening to me, and they have been tuning in with me.
I will just keep it open, since I am weak now, I cannot close it anyway, I can only keep it open. I can only relax and wait for further instructions.
Even if I have lied, the angels knew it anyway.
And if they’ll ask further, I’ll just tell the truth without delay.