I call it, self help. When you push so hard to protect something, to accomplish something. It is when you see threat and then you push too hard to stop the threat from happening.
Sometimes, pushing so hard can be dangerous, specially when your focus is out of line. I mean when you’re not inline with your intention or your final goal. It’s a conflicting thoughts that you consider a threat but you procrastinate and not do something about it.
It’s like ignoring a big desire and not doing something about it because you think “Negatively” that you “Can’t”. You decided to stay negative instead of trying it so you will know what will happen next. You are not allowing the possibility that “You Can” pull it off.
Everyone can do the possible things that they thought impossible for them. “If others can, why can’t I?” The answer is, up to you. If you want to try and succeed, you’ll find good reasons why you can; but if you choose you can’t, then you’ll also have plenty of reasons why you can’t.
I guess weighing it and writing it down really helps in decision making. You know, pros and cons of your choice and the possible outcome of it all, both sides I mean. Biasing is cheating on yourself and it’s not really helping, it’s the worst type of betrayal.
My point in this writing, is to advise you to take action on the threat. Anxiety comes in, confusion comes in, but it’s the only way for you to be helped. No one’s going to offer help if they do not know the situation. You must learn to look past through shame, doubts, gossips, bullying, darkness in the tunnel, grinning out of a sarcasm. Then remember this “There’s a light at the end of the tunnel, just keep going, and let go of everything that weighs you down. Someday, they’ll find courage to follow your footsteps, to trust you, because you have passed, so go on, keep going. Just focus on your end goal.
Let go of pushing hard, you know you’re stopping your short term goal and long term goal by doing that. Pushing so hard on little things is not a wise mans act. If it’s little, relax, that’s why it’s cute. Love little things, do the things that you desire, do something else, go past your limit, there’s more you can do than pushing so hard on little things, you’re killing it. And if big things scares you, then make it cute, but don’t kill it, be gentle, distant yourself if you must, not too close. I like flame, because it gives me light and I cannot kill it nor hold it.
If you want to push harder, then think bigger, direct your pushing to big things. If you’re not doing it right now, then you’re wasting your energy pushing into little things that matters. Not only you’re not helping yourself grow, but you’re also killing something very cute. Learn to relax with little things and realize how gentle life is. Appreciate it, love it, and be kind to it. That’s how you recover from pushing too hard on the wrong idea, thoughts, and direction. There is a life in that area, be gentle.