Then we realized, we knew it! We knew it! We knew how to do it! We just knew it! We’re just too scared to do it. I was too scared to try my idea.
Today, I had a confirmation, to trust what I already knew. I knew the answer to my question but I lied to myself, because I don’t trust her, I doubted in her abilities.
So it’s always been me, not my mother, nor my cousins, nor anyone, no one but me; I don’t trust me, I don’t believe in me, I doubted myself. I act as if I don’t know anything, but I knew.
What was I doing? Was I acting blind or what? Oh I knew, I wanted others to do it aside from me. I realized that if others will do it, why didn’t I? I want them to be the first and me? What am I so afraid of?
What are we so afraid of trying? Why so desperate of approval? Why have to wait for others to do it? Why can’t we? Why? Why not me? Why not you? Because you don’t trust you, you knew it, but you’re waiting for others to say it, you already knew the answer, all you need is a confirmation that you are indeed right.
You’re intuition and your instinct is always right but you always needed someone else’s approval, you don’t want to help yourself. You don’t want yourself to be recognized. You are wearing a mask and you don’t want to share whdat you know because you hated yourself so much knowing that she is better than you.
Oh no! What is this kind of attitude, self grudge? Self sabotage? Yes, that’s it! But why are you sabotaging yourself? You want to show that you’re not good enough. You want to prove yourself wrong. Wow! Yourself isn’t your enemy dude. You must prove yourself right? Right?
So, if you have a gutt feeling and intuition, do it immediately, don’t delay, consider it urgent and important, that if you’re not going to act on it right now, you’re going to be put to shame.
Since you are procrastinating anyway for not trusting yourself, and because of fear of being put to shame if it’s not going your way. But one thing also why people choose not to say something, is because they have their own priorities, therefore choose to stay quiet, uncertain, and in the state of surrender.
“Running away is a sign of fear and it attracts anger, because the opposite attracts. But surrending induces relaxation, it’s a sign of bravery, and it is when you’re more relaxed that you are the strongest, therefore it attracts almost nothing, but peace 🕊️ and gentle creatures; your mind and soul is at rest.”- Minaros