There is hope

“There is always hope when it comes to family.” – Me.

I thought of the other way to keep my family together, and I realized that I actually have two younger brothers. I focused too much on my parents separation and their life choices that I really hated, and I missed to see the presence of my brothers, helpless brothers who seeks guidance, financial and emotional help from their sister.

We have each other. I have to keep on moving because I have two younger brothers left and I have to take responsibility. Before, I kept on running away because it’s the parents responsibility to take care of their children’s. I couldn’t accept that they’re irresponsible and they can’t be together anymore for my other brother.

Now that I have accepted this responsibility and started acting like a responsible sister, I had that sense of usefulness and a reason to move forward. They gave me reasons to continue, to live life and to move in the right direction. I lost touch because my mother has changed her everything and my father has a new wife.

I lost the family I once had and I act like I’m okay this whole time, but I am not okay. I am honestly feeling so lost everytime I see kids with complete family, a loving mother and a father. This jealousy took away my focus and I spend so much time hating myself. I kept on comparing myself to them and it really made me feel so weak and defeated. Not a good idea at all.

I am still accepting their new lives and I am still accepting my new responsibility. I have done this before, I will do it again hoping that I won’t get lost again. We have brothers and sisters. The lost of our parents or their divorce must not affect our relationship with each other. We must not follow them, we must do what is right. If they can’t, then we must.

I kept on running away from these responsibility. But this responsibility is making me useful. It made me feel like I have a sense of purpose for everything that I am doing because I have brothers. I have them, I can share everything to them. I actually have them, I’m not alone, so it’s really okay to have plenty. It’s okay to accept more and more blessings because I still have them.

My brother motivates me to finish my school but somehow I have forgotten that. They’re actually my hope. I can still build it, there is hope. I can still reunite the three of us in the name of our father. We always have hope, just so you know. I hope that if you’re experiencing the same life situation, if you’re family’s broken and the brothers and sisters are fighting; I hope that the eldest will start taking responsibility. We can do it! We’re not made the first, if we can’t do it right. πŸ‘ And you’re not alone.

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not πŸ˜ƒ just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP :; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❀ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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