Emotionally Free

“Fear cannot win against fear; expecting to win while fighting with fear is like expecting to be in peace while fighting in anger.”

Ah, I’m not sure if I said it correctly, but my point is that..

“You can’t solve a problem with the same thinking you’re using when you created it.” Whose this quote? Googled and it’s from ” Albert Einstein.

My point is kinda like that; although, instead of using the word thinking, I want to replace it with the word emotion. So now it should sound like, you can’t solve a problem with the same emotion you’re using when you created it.

Now, if I’m into facing all my fears time to time, I cannot face it with fear, I’ll only stop myself because of fear. So if I wanted to conquer my fear successfully, I’ll face it with faith, trust and a better goal in mind. There’s only one way to defeat all your fears, anxieties, etc. Depression, all those emotional feelings; only one feeling that can calm you down.

“It’s faith”. Have faith.

The last time I was in a boat going to Malapascua Island was last 2014, with my BF, it was also my first time feeling toasted inside a boat. But guess what, I did not panicked. I took a leap of faith and believed in the Captains ability to bring me safe to the shore. My mind was only focusing at the shore, with the intention of reaching it. My faith, trust, and support in my intention probably helped. The Captain was able to get us through safe. Everyone was so quite.

The last time our neighborhood was on fire was June 2019. I woke up from the screams of my neighbors and caring people knocking at my door so I will wake up from my deepest sleep. They were all panicking, but I managed to secure everything important and walked out the door relaxed like nothing happened.

If I think of a disaster, I’ll only have a panic attack. So I learn to surrender, “Lord, if anything will happen, it is up to you; it’s beyond my control and I surrender the people I care to you.” I relaxed and waited not knowing what will happened next. My dogs may have died, and the people who have cared about me; but then again, thinking about Negativities only made me feel sad and crying; so I had to cut it short and surrendered instead.

Everything turned out okay for everyone; like no one got injured; and everyone’s alive; but most importantly, I saved myself from panic attacks. It wasn’t so bad compared to the Earthquake last 2013 while we were taking our Final exam. I stood up like a Giant with big legs stepping out, but I couldn’t jump off the building, so I had to return back inside the room; but my classmates were already laughing at me because they saw me with that big step. I looked at them and laughed back because they’re so scared and they’re hiding underneath the table and a chair that’s too weak. If the last floor will collapse, the chair won’t be able to save them too.

Anyways, in order to be free emotionally, have faith and courage to believe and trust in your instincts and gut feelings. There’s always a way. Just have faith and everything will turn out just right. Things has to happen, but in the end of the tunnel, there’s always that bright light. You’ll become who you want to be and you’ll experience the place that you dreamed of, just be patient.

Feel the pain now, and heal in 3 days ; rather than suppressing it with lies, illusions, proxy that’s not true and forever feel the pain. Ah, my family’s broken and it’s imperfect, but for 20 years I acted like I’m okay, careless, like it’s nothing; living in a dream, living like my family’s intact through other people, I had a fake father, fake mother and fake brothers and sisters. Until it got triggered, the truth slapped me at my face and it was the worst experience I had ever. I was very depressed. Living in a lie as if I had a perfect family turned me into a liar. I lied to me so I wasn’t able to do it right. I allowed people to fake me, to abuse me emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Until, I’ve had enough, it’s time to face the truth.

I’m still facing the truth but the effect is not as bad as before. I wish I had someone consoling me while my parents go separate ways. I hope I had the courage to vent out my self-anger; I hope I did not suppressed it longer; I hope I had someone to trust; I hope I had someone to talk to about my sufferings. But I had no one. It felt like, I’m always wrong and they’re always right. I hope someone told me that to deny your emotions, to hate yourself is a bad thing. I hope I had that; my childhood could have been better, if someone trusted me, believed in me, appreciate my achievements. I hope I had such a loving and supportive parents who does not only talk about themselves but how good their children’s are.

Now I realized, I kept talking about me and not about you. It’s because I have no idea how much you have struggled as well. I just hope you know, you’re not alone coz I’m smarter now, knowing alone that I am not alone. You can do it too. You can still execute what you could have done more. You can still give yourself, the freedom, to feel that emotion, and to be finally be free from your bondages.

You can still provide yourself, the people you wish you had before. I believe in you, you can do it! We can do it! We can be better. Feel those emotions and do not hate it, embrace it like you are the master of it all because you are the source. Conquer your fear of pain with love, faith and gratitude, with good intention. Happy healing!

Happy Saturday! ☺️

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not πŸ˜ƒ just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❀ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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