“Believe in you; why would they not doubt if they’re not in your shoes?”
I used to get so emotional when people closer to me disliked me, gets jealous of me, and not happy of my achievements.
But soon as I realized, I actually deserve the right people in my life, where I feel safe, accepted, celebrated, and valued; I started to change.
There is nothing wrong with being an achiever; so celebrate your own success, while others are weeping for it; I mean it’s none of your business that they feel bitter.
I remember how I used to doubt myself, a lot; always feeling like not good enough just because no matter what I do, I am still not the best and my family’s still broken; my mother still wouldn’t change.
I questioned myself, “Why am I so useless?” No matter what I do, this and this is still the same. So I kept on searching for answers; if I’ll stay with the same people, it will always be the same; so I moved out, get to know other people.
In my search of understanding and guidance, I found this questionnaire that the elites answered, “If free to be your self, what would you do?”
This question became my guide, and slowly, I discovered the passion that I’d like to be doing for a long time, and it is ‘Writing.’ I asked the same question, if free to be myself, what topics will I be writing?
I decided to write about my story first; that’s when I decided to write my books, which I kept hidden because it’s too personal; it’s not really totally hidden, I just didn’t market it, because again, I seek approval from the world, if it’s good enough, if it’s really helpful; even if I know, it is; I just didn’t believe.
Someone, believed in me; cared about me, and accept me for what I was; he’s been a source of inspiration, that I decided to write the book I entitled, “Authenticity 101,” written, in the hope of finding the same person I met at the airport March 22, 2018.
How I conquered my fear of gossips and got me published that book?
I let go of uncontrollable stuffs. I let go of those I cannot control nor cannot change. You can’t change people. People change, once they learned the lessons; but others remained stuck, because they just can’t accept they were wrong.
So, do not try to change people, is like saying, ‘Do not try to bend the spoon,’ in the movie The Matrix; show them. We are like mirrors of each other, so show them how you want them to be.
When someone doesn’t believe in me, I started believing in me, more. There things that others couldn’t believe because they haven’t been there. I believe in Jesus Christ because I know how it feels like not to be believed. Believe in you!