I am always in a stopping myself mode, instead of allowing myself to be me. It felt like I am stuck in a place where nobody’s around, just me; nowhere to go, just stuck. It’s like a trauma, yes it is! It felt like a tree.
Sometimes, when I am alone, I will find something to do; something that can help others lives better, just a little bit. I started helping my family in their chores, I found value in helping them. It makes me feel helpful.
Recently, I was asking myself, “What I could have done differently?” I am going to do the right thing. I found my purpose in life. I want to make things better now and tomorrow.
It started with letting go with the uncontrollable things, that include other people’s problem; most of the time, it’s the main source of problems; it is when you care too much.
I learned how to calm down and relax by observing the trees. The trees, they’re just silent. They’re the best living things on earth; no complains; no judgements. They just allow anyone to lean on them, to sit on them, to hug them, to talk to them, to vent out.
Whenever you’re angry, just listen to the silence of the trees. Sometimes, the best weapon is silence; against your angry self, against your self destructive self. If you kept on observing, they just allow; they don’t resist. They transform, they don’t complain.
They kept on growing. They kept on replacing old leaves with new ones; they let go, and then they let themselves grow. But you know, they don’t die. The good thing for us, is that, we can move from one place to another. It’s up to us to stay or to move out for good.