These past few days, I realized that when I spend most of my time observing little things that matters, it made me feel grateful about life. Like watching these beautiful cat family we have.
It all started with just one kitten. She gave birth with many batches, they all died; until I decided to feed my “Birch Tree” milk to them. Unexpectedly, with my kindness, they’re alive until now.
Then they gave birth to more kittens; added 3, now they’re 6. Plus there are male cats from our dead neighbors, they’re now 9. We have 9 cats in total.
Atleast when I’m alone in my room, I can go out and play with my cats. Whenever I have negative thoughts, my brain kept tricking me, I can say NO. This is a nice training for me to say NO. To chose to accept love; to love myself and to remember that I am not alone.
If people doesn’t like me, atleast my cats does. I am still blessed and loved. Even if sometimes, I feel like noone’s around for me, but there are someone who does. I just have to acknowledge them. When other people made me feel inferior and unimportant, I learn to accept someone else’s love. I learn to appreciate people appreciating me.
I acknowledge and thank people who have believed in me even if I feel like I’m the worst human being on earth. I started counting my blessings and hope that it will multiply. When I’m down, I hope to have courage to get up and be there for myself first instead of searching for someone else to be there.