First, I’d like to remind you that the biggest school on earth is “Outside of School Zone.” I just created that; what I mean to say is that learn about life and its complexities; anything that was not taught in the normal school can be learned outside, where real life starts.
I understand it’s really confusing, you thought you already knew everything because you have been educated but sad to say, “You still have a lot to learn.” Leaving college for me, was not enough. I knew that I still have a lot to learn, and if I will stay in the norm, I wouldn’t have the courage to pursue what I really wanted with this life that I dearly hold.
Sometimes, you just have to break the norms, the old patterns that’s not getting you anywhere; or shall we say, breaking your walls for you to be free. Suddenly, you feel bored of the repetitive negative kind of pattern the environment have thrown you. Sometimes, you blame yourself for not being good enough that’s why you’re not going anywhere.
But the truth is you are more than good enough already. Try to look back and see for yourself how far have you gone from being a toddler, too dependent from your mother’s approval; too afraid to go out in the dark without your parents companionship because a SNAKE or a MONSTER might attack you.
Your parents was your hero, and you were pressuring them and making them do the impossible but “hey dude, your parents are human too.” Just like you, they may look big but deep within are the crying inner child in them exactly like you, also needing protection, attention, appreciation, love, cuddles, everything you want your parents to treat you like.
“Now thanks to my dearest Feb; she made me see the truth; I am blessed simply by meeting them and listening to their advises. She’s a Pro and I knew it! She will be blessed more and I know for sure.”
I have understood a lot and I believed what I already knew, because someone has the same view as me; they confirmed my doubts and it’s the greatest gift I received this year. Along with MK who taught me how to keep moving on are mates who listens and gave genuine advises. They became my parents before I turned 30 and and they’re all younger than me, how blessed! I finally got parented the right way. All thanks to the opportunity given to me by J***.
Now instead of blaming my parents and feeling bad about myself for having them as my parents who have not really satisfied my childhood needs, just like their parents haven’t; I decided to understand their situation. Not all people are gifted with skills and abilities like us, I claimed it; please do so, as well. Experience with them what they want to experience, because NOW you can!
I had a doubt before I decided to present myself; but because I accepted change and embrace growth, I did it anyway with excitement and readiness to take on the challenge. I feel the doubt and did it anyway. Sometimes, you have to let go of everything you have in order to be ready to receive something great. Sometimes, you have to trust yourself because you have come so far! You are more than good enough, this time! Just do it, keep failing, keep learning! Be stronger! Never let your ego slowdown your progress; never let your ego stop you from learning new things. Don’t let your age define you; give new meaning to your age.
Climbing, Rocks! 