I have a little crazy experience today, wherein I asked the driver for a “Bus Ticket”. First thing first, it’s not the driver’s job to issue ticket, I could have waited for the conductor to collect the money and asked for a ticket.
I had no idea how that request triggers the conductor’s EGO. In the end, all fingers were on me and that’s the craziest thing in the world, you would also cry if you’re in my shoes. People’s minds are so complex, we don’t even know how they interpret things.
Well, I still managed to be quiet, wondering what’s going on; if the conductor really gave me the ticket already and I just missed it because I had a stomach ache and I was struggling like crazy I almost collapsed prior to that, thanks to McDonald’s choco I was a little relieved.
Anyway, I was wondering what triggers the conductor’s behaviour, he could have calmed down and check his receipts and showed me proof that he already issued me one instead of explaining himself like he’s at fault, I didn’t even argue because I was also unsure.
I just didn’t remember receiving the ticket, just like how I did not remember putting my ID on my bag nor flashing the toilet, nor how I arrived at the Terminal. Everything seems so automatic or maybe I was just really unconscious that I didn’t notice how I do things naturally.
Oh well, the driver and the conductor as well as the collector we’re kind of bullying me; I could have been treated differently and nicely? I mean, I deserve that, since I was the passenger (forgetful passenger) and didn’t even say a word after they said they already issued one. They kept on saying hurtful words like I’m a “Nobody, and couldn’t afford to pay 36 pesos extra for the 2nd ticket if they have already issued one.”
I was holding my tears back trying not to put on a show; while they kept on defending themselves and giving out unnecessary comments like they’re the most righteous human being in the world who have never made any mistakes, have never fallen ill, etc. The Bus driver almost hit a motorcycle while bashing me, he could have paid more than “36 pesos” for their lives.
It wasn’t my fault that I have asked, but I could have confirmed it with the right person if in doubt instead of asking again. It’s more on confirming instead of having them repeat themselves or giving them the idea to argue or defend themselves for no reason.
Anyway, it was the worst experience in my whole life; the craziest and the saddest. I just want to move on so I have to let them go, I deserve my peace, and my time is precious to be spent fighting. I just want to surrender everything to the Lord and just move forward like living in the present moment. Do your best and learn to accept defeat.
Climbing, Rocks! 