Rejections taught me fear, self anger, disappointments, and worst of all “Shame.” Truth is painful and so embarrassing; it scares the hell out of me. Would you rather run or stay? Either ways, you can’t get away from shame. Don’t stop, don’t run, just stay. Let’s face the truth, that’s how we grow and how we learn, the rest is history.
Running away is like saying, “It’s not me” but it was you and we all knew it. Hiding like a child is no longer working because they can see you. You’re so BIG and so visible so stop acting so little. I know it felt awkward specially when you’re not used to it, to being known, etc. Man, you’re not getting little, you’re getting bigger.
You’re not getting any younger no matter how younger you may look like, you’re still older. So stop acting like you’re not aware because you are. Be you! If you’re scared of lossing face and friends, then learn to stand on your own. Real friends will accept the real you. If they saw you for who you really are and they still choose you happily, then you’re lucky!
I guess the greatest lesson everyone must learn and master is standing on your own, self love, self appreciation, self support, self motivation, self healing; because in the end of the day, you will be alone anyway. Don’t be too dependent in others, learn from them and thrive not just survive.
Blanca once said, “If it won’t kill you, then do it.”
For me, the reason why I wasn’t doing IT is because I am so scared of rejection, like who am I for them to say “YES” to my request. I remember back in 2nd Year High, I was in the middle of the exam, nature called; I felt so cold, I really want to come out of the room because I want to pee and poop and I was too scared to ask for permission to go out. You don’t need permission to excuse yourself, do you? Not anymore, just do it NOW.
You know you can do it, so just do it. Why on earth would you need permission when you’re older? Just go! Well, first of all, I was so scared of being reprimanded, scared of shame, scared of not being able to make it on time, scared of missing out, scared of making mistakes, scared of being marked absent, scared of losing the rank, scared of gossips, scared of lossing faces, scared of everything! EGO is afraid of lossing faces, scared of being rejected and be left behind.
Guess what! I conquered that fear on my trip to Alicia, Bohol the other week! I just did what I needed to do without rushing and they waited for me. I’m so blessed! I’m so thankful and grateful that they all waited for me without regrets. You see? Don’t stop yourself, just go! Don’t force anything, no pressure. They’ll wait for you! Army’s waited for BTS. If it’s meant to be, it is meant to be. Hey, don’t forget Ray waited for Zeinab! Omg! Keep going, someone’s waiting for you. Someone’s catching up with you!
EGO is the enemy. It is protecting you from shame, from healing, from the truth. Shame doesn’t need protection , shame needs to be processed, and if you’re not going to face it, you will be stuck and you won’t be able to move on to the next, you will keep doing the same mistakes and you will keep attracting the same people, because you’re in denial, as if it didn’t happen. It’s the only way to proceed, face it or be stagnant. Just face it! Accept what is!
GOD says, I’ll be with you every step of the way, do it. Ego says, you’re not chosen, you will be rejected again, it will be painful, your family’s broken- yours will be broken too, you’re a failure, your father left you, you will be left too, your mother denied you, you will be denied too, your brother doesn’t respect you, you will be disrespected too. No matter what you do, they’ll always find a way to destroy you, so don’t do it, just be disappointed. God says, just do it, no matter what you do they’ll find a way to destroy you, so don’t mind them, just do what you have to do and let them be themselves! You can’t control them anyway nor change them. Just do what makes you happy and keep improving yourself!
Have the courage to do what others choose not to because of fear of whatever, you name it. Some fears are not even real, it’s just mind generated to give you second thoughts. But if you’re so sure about it, then go for it, why not? You’ve got time to prepare, so prepare yourself. Just dance! 😁 See ya!
Hey! Don’t forget, keep growing! Keep learning! Learn a lot of skills while you can! It’s better to have a lot of options that a dead end! Oh, and don’t forget to be happy, NOW! You deserve it, you worked hard for it. You’re amazing, incase you didn’t know. You are appreciated by me in case no one notice. And if people are against you, then let them be. See their differences and be thankful and grateful for their contribution.
I’m proud of you, remember that! I’m cheering on you, keep the faith! If it’s getting harder to process, then have a good laugh! It’s funny how our mind made us feel a certain way. Maybe we should think a certain way if we want to feel a certain way? Oh, sound like “The science of getting rich” by Paulo Coelho. Nah, I’m having fun reading it. I want a copy for sure. Would you do me favor? 😁 A gift for my birthday? Or I want to piggyback ride at Jeon Jungkook’s lovely back! And I want to back hug him for 5 seconds! 🤭
Night! 🤭🤣🤣🤣 And I did it!
Climbing, Rocks! 