Feeling sad, cannot see you nor touch you. You’re out of reach, I want to talk you. Want to see you but I still can’t. I don’t know what happen to this beautiful heart but I feel sad.
Don’t know how to get closer to you, you seem so far away, even if you’re so near me. I lied to myself I told her you live far far away and there’s no chance of getting to know you.
Even if we’ll finally met, we still couldn’t be by ourselves. Surrounded by many I feel like you are running away, too scared of me. But that’s what makes me angry, so please grow up already stop making me angry.
You know what I want, just a kiss. I kiss like that. I know it’s crazy but I will send you my kisses anyway, I hope you’ll be able to catch it. It’s crazy how I can talk to you telepathically, like I am the one writing this for you to read.
But know that you’re always in my heart and mind, always my baby even if you’re older than me. I know you’re worried that I might not like it, that you are who are, but that’s not a problem, I just want you to be happy when you are with me, because that makes me happy too.
Although we haven’t met yet, it felt like we already have, through this and through others. My music is strengthtening to reach your depressed heart. I can feel your sadness that’s not really what I wanted. I wanted you to be happy in all your ways even if I am far far away.
But who are you anyway, I feel like I am scared to know the real you, you’re wearing a mask, how will I know if this is the real you. But I can see it in your eyes who are you really. It has a message but I cannot decode yet because I haven’t seen you yet.
But i know you’re listening to the music I tune in. I know we’re connected but not really seeing. I am so happy that we are together anyway, even if we look so far away.
Know that we’re breathing the same air and the same sun and moon, seeing the same stars, the same milky way galaxy, the same cartoon movies, and most importantly the same music.
We’re not totally separated, it just look like we are, but we’re not. We’re living at the same home, but in different locations. There are barrier that blocks our way from seeing each other physically, but when we look up, we realized it’s not what you see but how you feel.
I see other people as you and it’s kind of crazy because they also see me differently. It doesn’t match at all, I knew it exactly they’re the wrong person for me. I get angry for no reason, I thought they must change but they must not, they’re simply the wrong person for me.
What I really want it you, someone I haven’t seen yet but felt, listened, and communicated. I guess it’s only the Lord who we can trust with our hearts. We cannot trust it with others because they’ll only change it. There’s no other way, for now let’s be with the Lord until the right one came.
We can use the Lord to be your substitute, because it’s safest, it is the wisest, the bravest, the most holy without stepping on others lives and without changing others into someone they are not, until we met, until we recognize each other’s look alike.