Owning your emotions

“If there’s no snake, then you’re safe.”

The first thing to do when you’re afraid of something is to look around and see if there are really monsters or snakes around. Usually, there is none. So you’re always safe to move faster or slower, it’s really up to you.

When I was in high school, I had to cross a path where dogs keeps barking always ready to attack the non-owners. I always feel scared and stiffened but I also always kept my calm down and I always trust that I can get through it without getting bitten nor attacked by them.

For 5 years, I have been feeling that, since I moved school to the other neighboring barangay. Though there’s another way without the dogs but there’s also myths about monsters popping out of the trees, and the place was very close; there’s also a tomb of someone I do not know whom.

Choice goes to just passing through the dogs and allowing them to keep barking, they’re just being dogs. They’re not mine, so they’re being rude to me and unfriendly. I hated that day to day life, but I must get used to it. I still have that fear of barking dogs and I am still feeling that feeling when they’re around, like it’s really making my back hurts like crazy.

Thers a tapping solution that I am applying to keep it relaxed, “Even though I so scared of Dogs and my back hurts because of trauma, I have deeply and complete accepted myself.” I am still on it hoping for a good result, but these days I am only doing it sometimes because I’m a little bit mentally pre-occupied. But I am going to resume it very soon.

These trauma, when triggered by the bad guys, would really stressed me out; I would feel like running away or I will control my movements to not invite the “Whomever” to come and bullshit me. I realized though, that wild dogs really do bark, it seems like they’re angry to you but they’re really not; it’s their nature and it has to be understood. One thing for sure, they’re not going to attack you if you’re not giving them reason to. Just be cool and do your thing; no matter what, whether you relax or not, they’ll always bark.

You can move faster, just look around if there are wild dogs around; if none, then the choice is yours. Simply being aware of the truth about your surroundings will help you relax and feel safe and secure. Most of our fears comes from the events that had already happened. So to say, it’s just remnants of your memory. When a certain memory got triggered, these emotion also will pop up. So be careful what you’re thinking about and whom you shared your bad memories with.

I am sharing memories here it’s because I am getting better at it. So it doesn’t really bother me nor affect me that much anymore. I have honed that emotional wild horse. I embraced it and I owned it. Now I have control of it all.

Published by Pinky Rose

I am a graduate in Business Administration major in Management Accounting but I'm not really practicing it 😁 It made me sound cool and I loved it. Although, I am still working with one of the most prestigious financial company in the entire Universe 👍. But I will become a Certified Broker before I turn 40. I decided to take up Commerce before because it was something new to me; the mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology now; a psychiatrist and I am my first patient 🤫, it's so natural to me; they're soldiers too, but I wasn't allowed to take the exam the last time I applied for PAF because of my myopia. The father side are into politics, I could have taken political science but it wasn't offered at my University back then but if it was offered, I still wouldn't get it because it's expensive and I was only a scholar back then; but mostly, on my father side, they're teachers. My father is a good farmer, I hope I can offer him something very important. He doesn't like school he choose to help his parents when he was young. He doesn't like school; he likes women 😂 and my mother likes men 😂, I mean, they liked dating more than putting themselves to school for whatever reasons, I don't believe it; they could have done it if they only choose it. I ended up pursuing the new way where it doesn't follow any of them; I can feel how they looked down at my parents because they haven't finished anything; they never stopped destroying them until my family's broken. So me, I graduated in Business Administration in which none of them have pursued; I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity. I am also into writing because they're not really into writing. I am into dancing because these people don't really dance. Singing is my natural born talent 😂 but I'm just kidding. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help spread good vibes. I am becoming successful in this kind of business, I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted, yes I am. I am beautiful inside and out, charot. I am a goal-oriented person. I am passionate in writing. I am passionate in sharing. I am in love in all new things. I am in love with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. I have great success in my academic side, my friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements to help me attract more of it 🤣. It's a mind trick. I have a good voice. I have a good sense of humor. I have passion. I have compassion. I have an attitude of gratitude. I have friends who's always with me in my ups and downs. I have an acting mother coz she likes acting dead, her broken-heart is dead 🤣 I have great support from the angels. I have a best friend who communicates with me telepathically. I have an eye in music and arts. I love to cook for me. I love to tell good news. I love to be of help. I love to help but not too much. I love to heal. I love to dance. I love to laugh. I love BTS. I love happy memories. I love new experiences. I love first time experiences. I love travelling. I love taking pictures of me and my coalleagues. It's called selfie 😛. I love being me, childish around close friends but I little distant with new acquaintances, I have trust issues 😂. I love to contribute. I love to appreciate. I love to be of service. I love to work lightly. I practice tarot card reading; but actually, I just listened to them, I can learn from listening. I practice song writing, but these days I watch Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor. I practice poem writing but I also stopped coz sometimes it's just boring. I don't care if you will bless me. I don't Care if you will love me and accept me for who I am and what I am not. I don't care if you will marry me or not but I hope you will, haha. I love wearing hanbok but I don't really have one. I don't care if you will praise me or not. I don't care, your choice! I will still be happy no matter what; even if it's just a joke. Aside from that, I really love Photography 🤭

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