High School Family

Enrolling myself in Grade 5 was a turning point for me. I have never expected meeting such caring teachers who considered me as their own. My school teachers have been my parents ever since I started schooling. They were kind, they’re not biased, never ever made me feel like an outcast even if I only came from that little town not knowing anyone aside from the people I see at the farm.

They’re amazed of my ability to adapt things quickly that I got bored at section b grade 5 and decided to transfer to section A grade 5, where I got the chance to meet the best of all the best in my Elementary and HS days. Having to compete with them was a lot of fun for me. I ended up 4th honors. It was funny. I really had so much fun!!

At Grade 6, I choose to tag along with them because I think they’re the best of all the best and I am just so amazed by them. I made friends with my competitors and it was the best elementary and high school days. I feel so cared of, they’re always around and I just couldn’t stay away from them because they’re just the best, I just loved them. I became 3rd and graduated 2nd best in class in my High School days.

The best friendships I had, the best people I had was when I was with them. I always listen to them and never envy because they never made me feel envious, I always feel like I belong with the geniuses. Gladly, the company I worked for right now has the best employees in the whole world for me. They are athletes, musicians,writers, host,artist, teachers,engineers; all the best type of people I truly wanted to surround myself with. I am so happy here and I know I will grow even more with them.

College was a bit odd and crazy. I lost touch with high school mates somehow, it was a little bit lonely; and yet, I was still hanging out with the brightest personalities in our department. I’m just so glad I’ve met them as well. It was also the best, although it wasn’t that good because I didn’t like the people in this place I stayed in, I wanted to be with someone who’s going to cheer me up not boast me around people.

I wanted to be treated like a normal human being, not a weird alien walking around the planet with a degree in something 😁. I just want a peaceful life, just like that. Being appreciated and thank, for the good little things that I have done. But I also don’t want to be belittled just because I am not showy or like I choose to be simple.

I can be not so simple too, if I wanted to, like occasionally. I wanted to be surrounded by people who respects that part of me and at the same time encouraging me to be better every single day. I wanted to be with people who’s not boastful but also not looking down at themselves. I wanted to be surrounded by people who uplifts themselves and uplifts others (me included) like a team.

When I was on my Caregiving Training, I had that sense of real teamwork. Like we had to function with our individual task to get our jobs done as a team, and it’s the best feeling in the whole universe. It’s cool to be in harmony with the people who uplifts each other for something big that we aimed for. Like their win is my win and we’re in it together!

In my college days, I’m also always in the winning team. We played the life of Jose Rizal and I was the one who act like M. Clara, and our team won! Everyone was very supportive. It was amazing! I remember during my speech choir competition with the other college departments and we won! It was crazy! I was being surrounded by the most amazing individual, I felt so lucky everytime.

During our speech development final presentation, I was the anchor, with my other colleague. It turned out so well, we had the highest score among the teams. It was crazy! It was all unexpected but we knew we did our best! We did our best.

I may not be good with my major subjects, but the minors always rock my world! That’s actually why I was able to maintain my scholarship until graduation.

I’m so blessed with the right people except the bloodlines hahaha, they hated me for being me and never felt great about me but jealosed and insecured with me. They’re good at comparing me to others who they think is better than me too! πŸ˜‚ How can they boast about themselves when I’m not even boasting and I know I am better than them like truly. Now it sounds so funny! Sometimes, I pity them, but if I do, they’ll also take advantage of me; and if I won’t care about them, they’ll call me whatever evil world’s they can think of.

Anyways, I deserve my peace, so I’ll just let them judge me. They don’t know what I am thinking, not my plans either. They’re so blind and I want to be different from these type of people, it felt so disgusting. I guess I have to change a little bit more like more and more, until I am able to set my super boundary to protect my emotions from these narcissistic minded humans πŸ˜‚.

Guess what, I am meeting the same type of people from my high school days, I guess what you really focus on multiplies. I met people who cares about me like I was being cared for during the days without these people around. It started around 8 years old when I had such an amazing life because it’s the time when these people that I am surrounded with right now at this place started leaving our hometown.

You see, I’m heading the right direction. Everything repeats itself, I just hope I can change my childhood days like 0 to 7 years old, where I was being surrounded by the same people I am being surrounded with right now. I hope that when I am about to start another 10 years of my life on earth say 30, now I’m 28. I will attract new types of people. Eh, that’s a lot of change for me to do.

“Life is like a circle, you just have to learn how to dance with it, when the wave comes back again. But I believe, we can change it. Let me do it first and I’ll tell you how I did it.”

Published by Roselyn

Hi! I'm Roselyn! The first and only daughter of my father. He's a farmer and I am so proud of him for raising me and accepting me as his own. I believe that Broken families are meant to be broken for good. As a product, I always feel in-secured about family coz I think I don't have one and I am left alone; but the truth is, I still have them, they just went separate ways and I just have to accept that and move on. It's my only insecurity, I have no place to call my home coz my parents doesn't have one. They're broken after all. I'm going to make a family and it will start with me.

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