I am convinced that my only obstacle is my old self. Don’t stop, keep going! Just do it, you’ll get used to it. Believe in yourself, you have come this far, what proof do you still need. You can do it!
I used to be so scared of crossing the Mactan New Bridge alone. Instead of avoiding it, I took that as an opportunity for me to help myself conquer that fear. I started with holding the bridges railings, focusing on the mountains without looking down at the ocean below, and laughing at myself everytime I feel like my grip on the railings is getting tighter.
Right now, I am able to stop in the middle of Mactan New Bridge to take photos of sunrise and sunset without holding on for support. I got used to it and my body sensed that it’s safe and that I am in good mind. Just walk or jog. I learned to trust myself, slowly.
I used to be so scared of… should I say it here? Nah, better not. I faced my fear by trying it, then even enjoyed it like it’s nothing, just for fun; so I have to restrain myself for 6 years now. Thanks to the pandemic, goal achieved, back to normal with experience. Haha! “I wonder why he knew about my curiosity. Wow!”
Trying new things is always a self to self battle. You must win against your old self in order to win and achieve your goal.
This Monday, I finally had a talk with a doctor outside of the company for a consultation. I’m simply proud that I found courage to do what was required of me to do! “Aced it self, you did great!” A conversation that I was not expecting to be so smooth. “Oh, I was wrong again, I thought they’d bite me.”
Sometimes, the solution to your fear is simply “Doing it,” until you get used to it. Problem solved. No need to stop or run away, just do it. You will be fine. As long as it doesn’t kill you, you’ll get used to anything new until it will become your second nature.
I used to be scared of travelling alone too, so I did it because I’m scared of it. I can’t be scared forever right? Now I’m fine doing it myself as long as it’s safe to travel and I’m financially ready. Everything will be alright.
I noticed that it’s the same pattern everytime I’m doing something new and different. Trust me, it will be fine in the end as long you know it’s safe. Do it! Just do it. It’s normal and you will be fine. If you’re no longer challenged, then you’re no longer growing maybe start thinking again?
He was someone new too, caring and funny; in the end, we’re both fine. They’re all different. Wow! I can really see their differences now. Interesting! If I have to choose amongst the three, I would choose the 2nd one. He’s kind and a good communicator but not good with… Haha “Oh, that’s totally fine. That doesn’t matter to me anymore, my happiness does; my rights and my freedom.”
Always choose those who respect you. Just do it! You will be fine. Remember not to chase because you’re not crazy, you’re fine!
Climbing, Rocks! 