A message from your future spouse: Gaze

I knew you since the very beginning. Right now, it almost felt like I knew everything about you. But deep within me hides a desire to speak. I want us to talk about what our future holds and how would it look like from now on.

We both get so emotional. We both get so moved everytime we think of being together in one table. What else would we do if not build a family that’s meant to be, but I guess we’re both not ready. I feel like we already have one big happy family that I just turn my back away.

We feel young, we feel incapable, we must still grow, that’s the fact we both knew. But we still longed to see each other even if we knew it goes to being crazy. We will end up separating to each other’s way.

But we still hope that one day, when we are strong enough to hold each other’s hand and show the world how happy we are to finally be in each other’s shoes, we will recognize each other’s gaze.

We knew it’s impossible to talk right now about serious things that involved big change because we both feel like” I am excited but I still have to grow more and more until that day will come that we’ll recognize each other’s gaze.”

I wanted this connection so badly. It’s the best in the world. I knew it since I started being close to anybody hurting me. But I am still scared to live in our quite world, you’re so distant and I feel so alone but it made me stronger everyday.

I guess, growing up with you from a far really is a challenge for me, it’s the most loneliest journey I had to take, without seeing you yet, touching you yet. Really hope that one day we’ll be able to meet. Hopping the Universe will help us get ready for that big day.

We both feel like we are ready, but it’s not time yet for us to see. Maybe I still have to grow a little more so that I can get through the pressures we will be sharing together. I want to have fun, we knew we both are. A special feeling only you and I relates.

I want to talk to you about how we’re going to be happy amidst us being far away. We’re both emotional and it’s not really healthy. We want to be happy whenever you are near me. Let’s grow up more and practice happiness everytime, even if we will look like crazy.

I feel scared to be crazy, I feel scared to be happy, it sounds so precious to me. It’s so different and it felt so weird to me. It felt ticklish, I want to laugh with you like crazy, but it’s so new to me, I want to run away.

I used to stop myself from laughing by getting angry of me. I was too concered people might think I am really crazy. Well now, I guess, it didn’t matter not a single spec of it. I just don’t care anymore if they’ll call me crazy for having fun with the one I don’t even see, I guess I can just smile like Tae, it looks so lovely.

I remember an outburst of laughter that day I heard my grandpa’s fart. But I was holding it because he might think I was having fun with him. Right now, I shouldn’t have. Thinking of you made me feel like laughing crazily. This time, I won’t hold it in, I guess it will really attract you I hope we’re both ready.

“Laugher is the key to finally let go of anything you’re holding in.”

– Beu 🌹

Published by Pinky Rose

Hi My Name is Roselyn and I am a Graduate in Business Administration Major in Management Accounting. I wanted to pursue a degree related to Property Management. I saw Commerce as something new to me. The Mother side of the family have Nurses and I want to become a Doctor in Psychology. They're soldiers too! I applied for PAF but wasn't allowed to take the exam because of my Myopia. The father side are into Politics and Farming, I could have taken Political Science or Agriculture, but my choice goes to Accountancy because it sounds so cool and it has a board exam (a requirement to be a Scholar). There are also teachers on my father side. My father is a good farmer, I love his plants. I hope I can offer him something very important. He stopped schooling, he choose to help his parents at the farm instead. My Mother was emotional and stopped schooling too. Later on, she had me then my brother; until she became emotional again and stopped being our mother. Me? I am always blessed and loved by the Universe and the Earthlings, they saw my potential and eagerness to learn new things. I choose to stay and share my knowledge. I wanted to become someone with a different attitude towards life; I'd rather not give than give out of pity; so if I'll give you something, it means you deserve it, not out of bias; I also want to be treated the same, win or lose I'll feel better, as long as it is righteous. Losing/failing will help me change and do the right thing. I am also into writing because I have plenty of ideas. I hope to earn a PHD; research papers are quite interesting; I will really have fun! I am into dancing, just for fun; Dancing is so funny specially if you can't get the steps then getting it right after, it doesn't bore. Singing is my natural born talent but I'm just kidding, maybe not 😃 just manifesting it. I have a book at Amazon KDP : https://amazon.com/roselynmina; written mostly to thank those who have helped me grow spiritually. I finished my Caregiving Training from Feb 2019 to Jan 2020; then became a certified career since 2021. I am working on my personal business, to pursue my passion with a purpose to help the world heal emotionally. I am becoming successful in this kind of business and I claimed it, because I want to manifest it. I am a team player, I want to have fun. I am kindhearted and beautiful inside and out but don't get me wrong, it depends on the person I'm dealing with, I can be rude too like super rude! Taking advantage of me is big no no. You'll get what you deserve later on. I am a goal-oriented person, passionate in writing and sharing the right way. I am in love in all new things specially with JK's personality; he made me laugh out loud, it's so healing. My academic side isn't that bad but also not too good because I still have a lot of knowledge to earn. My friend advised me to exaggerate little achievements though to help me attract more of it. I have a good voice and a good sense of humor if I choose to let it all out. I am passionate and compassionate. I practice an attitude of gratitude. I prefer to be alone than be surrounded by bad influencial people, but I am keeping my heart open for the good guys too. I am receiving support from the Angelic Beings and a future husband that communicates with me telepathically; I'm not sure if I have met him already, all I know is that, he can guide me well. Whenever I am out of my mind and feeling like in danger, he takes over; I may or may not recognize him personally but it doesn't matter, I think he can but I have trust issues so it's normal to not meet him sooner and it's also normal to not recognize him, I guess he already knew. I have an eye in music and arts and love to cook for me. If you believe you will be healed if you'll ask me to heal you intuitively then you will, but it was you that heals you, not me. I can dance and laugh. I am treasuring happy memories. I welcome new experiences. I'm excited with first time events I can travel, take pictures of me with my coalleagues. I can contribute and be of service. I like Song Joongkis movies 😁 he's such a good actor, I have watched most of his movies, but all of his movies in Netflix. But above all, I really love Photography! It's beautiful and exciting to look for good angles. It's a great brain exercise to look at better things in life. ❤ Welcome to my Blog! You're allowed to share your thoughts in the comment sections. Also, please follow and share if you like my artwork. It will help me notice that we share the same values.

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