Narcissistic Mother

Oh well, this is so true for me! Thanks Doc.

My mother is so like that and I’m so scared I might become. I am full of shame with my truth and how she treated me, but she still have the guts to question what I know about her.

I can still remember how she asked me “Where is your mother?” And put me to so much doubt about myself when she asked, ” Are you really beautiful?” She even bullied me for getting what I want.

Oh well, no matter how hard I will talk about her, she will just deny us. But I think that’s better. We will be able to move forward. But right now I enjoyed being a narcissist to them. I hope they will see who they are through me.

But nah, not too much though, I am still in control. I am so lucky to have good friends around who will always remind me of good values, professionalism and above all being spiritual.

At the back of my head, I am just like her, but I am so good at doing the right thing and assessing my thoughts and my emotions. This is called self therapy. I can be a good therapist. I hope one day I’d finally be able to decide whether to pursue it or not.

At least now I know that someone knew exactly how I felt and how I am being treated. Things I couldn’t even dare too share, too scared to be right. But then again, the truth will set us free. It’s the first step in dealing with our narcissistic Mother and a narcissistic self.

Hope all is well with you all. Fighting! Fighting to be good all the time. 💜 That’s why I love BTS, they’re just so precious to me. Thanks BTS! Thanks all behind BTS. Thanks much! Just thank you! Fighting with our mental health.

Published by Roselyn

Hi! I'm Roselyn! The first and only daughter of my father. He's a farmer and I am so proud of him for raising me and accepting me as his own. I believe that Broken families are meant to be broken for good. As a product, I always feel in-secured about family coz I think I don't have one and I am left alone; but the truth is, I still have them, they just went separate ways and I just have to accept that and move on. It's my only insecurity, I have no place to call my home coz my parents doesn't have one. They're broken after all. I'm going to make a family and it will start with me.

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