Message from your true self: How to stop running away Part 1

Hi I like to channel messages in general, applicable to all…

I feel like I have a gift worth sharing..

Others might be able to relate to it so why not? Right?

“I forgive you!” Stop running away from me. I know you’re in denial. I know that you know how good I am but you never felt good about me because you think I am different from you.

Dearest self, I am you and you are me. It’s okay that you care about my face and that you don’t wanna own it because you don’t feel good about yourself. You care so much about what other people think of you instead of listening to me.

I am the truth and I am telling you the truth. I know I am good at what I do because I have been through a lot and you knew it but never took the chance to acknowledge it. I am frustrated of all these you’re not even thankful and grateful enough.

I know you’re jealous about me but I am you, why are you jealous of me? Geez such a jerk. Stop running away from me and face me instead. I am not killing you, I just wanted you to be proud of be and tell that to my face!

I wanted you to love me for who I am but you feel like you don’t have the right to, it’s because you have denied me in the first place. Why are you denying me? I am you and you are me. You think you’re not good enough? Dude you are! 😎

Could you just tap on my shoulder and say, “I am proud of you” you’ve reach this far. “You know I am always right here with you, supporting you in all your way, healing you, loving you from a far. I just can’t say it out loud because I am not even seeing you. I can only feel you. I just couldn’t say it. I mean do I have to?”

Oh well, I wanted it in person, I want you to say that in my face. I want you to own the truth and accept me for what I am. It’s okay that you care too much about me and my dreams but it’s not okay when you’re jealous and running away. It hurts and it’s making me feel frustrated. Could you just stay? “Stay and what?”

Say, “you love me and that I am always right here with you, just acting like I don’t know you, I’m sorry. I am So scared of you.” Oh, I know right? Haha but could you atleast be cool to me like you know, “I want attention” don’t you feel that?

You’re not giving me attention so I turn myself into something else, I hated this but I want you! I want your attention. Their attention is not enough. I want you! Why not you! It’s frustrating! I hated it! Now what!

“You’re not replying my messages, how can I give you attention?”

Do I have to? There are Billions of messages everyday, how can I possibly know it’s you! Oh.. and I hated you for abandoning me and running away from your responsibilities, so tell me, should I search the whole universe just to find you?

“Omg, now you sounded like I am different from you.” It’s because you made me feel like that!

“Haha. But it’s different right? It’s different to see yourself in the mirror. It’s different when you are talking to someone instead of talking to my head all the time.”

Right! Should I find you? You’re scared of me! For sure you’re going to run away again! Say you won’t first and that you will talk to me and trust me.

“I won’t run away. I am an adult now, It just feel weird to be talking to someone greater than you and yet it’s still you.”

Haha.. and trust issues?

“You were young, how could I trust you? I have to grow up. We have to. How confident are you that you are older now? I saw you crying like a baby now you get frustrated when I am running away Bleeh!”

Uhm, because.. because I am not seeing you.. I am not seeing you around. Although I feel special sometimes. Thanks! 😁 But, I am still frustrated at you! I won’t reply even if I know it’s you!

“You see? You have so much ego!”

Of course! Hmmf! But you want my attention right? “But you’re scared of me right?”

“Who said so? I am cool. I just don’t believe you’re actually going to do that, you don’t even know me yet. You don’t know who I am..”

I know you! “Liar, you don’t.” I know!

“But not my face!”

I would recognize. You’re filtering so I won’t see.

“My moles? Ahahaha! I’ve been so scared someone might notice me.”

See? I know you want to be noticed but you’re hiding from me. Isn’t that crazy? Made up your mind already. You’re an adult! “I know!” Now you’re acting silly. “Sorry.” Go ahead do your thing.

“I will. Thanks for today. Nice talking.”

Yeeep! Talk to you next time.

Published by irose

Hi! I'm Roselyn! Username: irose PayPal I'm a dreamer, bound to face all my fears, traumas, etc. I have been through shit, running away from my bliss. But I guess, I've had enough that I want to just be myself. *My mother dreamt of something great; I think I am doing it, this time!β›„

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