“You” the real you, not what you think you are, knows best. She can see better than you know, and it’s not a joke coz it’s true. How many times you end up saying, “I knew it!”
Trust yourself, this time, it’s not a coincidence, it’s destiny. Allow it to happen; give yourself a chance to show the world what YOU can. Don’t worry, face your fear of losing your face; it’s unique anyway, so it can’t be stolen.
Last 2013, when I first had a feeling that someone took something from me. I’m not sure what that was, but I feel guilty about it. Sometimes, I feel like “I’m so scared” but I’m also the one being angry for not trusting myself.
It’s all me. But I am only one. I thought, I was alone, I must be crazy. Why do I feel like someone’s out there waiting for me. So much like me. In fact it’s me, but I’m different and I cannot accept it; yet it’s still me.
I remember myself thinking out loud, “Give myself back” I lost it somehow and I want it back, the way it was before; as a child, being me, being whole.
I felt deep separation; and I hate to admit it that it has to do with my parents separation. I don’t want to believe it, but I feel like, “I was where she/he was at”.
It’s hard, but I have to accept; I kept on avoiding this, blaming them instead, denied myself too many times; I thought it was them, but all along it was me.
It was me all along, unbelievable! Yes! Unbelievable, I hate to face shame, how should I react? Act like it’s nothing? But it is something. I know it is, I know! I kept masking it because I care too much about YOU, about the ME, who is better that I thought I really am.
I was lied many times about me, but one thing is for sure, “My truth is up to me” because I am the one to prove it. If I’d say, “Yes, I can” then I’ll do it. If I’d say, “No, I can’t” then I’ll do everything just so I can’t.
We are all scared of being called a liar. We care so much of our reputation; that’s how we are made of, unless we keep changing our minds which we freely can – it’s called lack of faith, full of doubts.
How many failed marriage plans, changed minds at the time of their wedding vows? The thing is that, we don’t want to disappoint people. We want to impress them all the time, so that we make sure that they felt great first before you, because you think it’s going to make you happy. Is stopping your happiness making you happy?
Not at all, is my answer. Putting others is a good thing, but putting yourself a priority is a must if you want to live a life. Don’t try to manipulate others behaviors if you’ll end up suffering; only slaves do that.
There are no slaves in the eyes of the Universe , we are all equal, the same; because we came from the same source. If one exist, then we all exist; if one doesn’t, then we all are. So which side are you? Your choice will be your reality – there are only two ways you can take, this way or that way… Remember, nothing is permanent, everything is temporary, you can change anytime😁..
Trust yourself, you know what’s best, you know what you want. Let go of doubts now, coz later on you’ll still want the same thing; over and over again, until you’ll finally stay and let it happen so we can all move on.