Prior to the pandemic, I was a scared little brat who doesn’t go out without friends, nor eat alone without anyone; I always want company and I always ended up being disappointed. Either I’d be harrassed, misunderstood, or I’d me misdirected.
The COVID 19 pandemic taught me to stand alone, and I’m really thankful and grateful that because of the lockdown I developed courage to do things solo, to think through things and determine what really matters and what do I really really want to do.
I realized that silence, less crowded places, and the simple life really makes me feel at home. When you start focusing on yourself, your own health, your own blessings, your own progress, security and safety; you’ll become happy again.
The disappointments that have caused by others who have wronged me and by me who did not say “NO” when it’s supposed to be a “NO”, was replaced by gratitude due to me. I started understanding myself the way I want others to understand me. In the past, I thought it’s weird and it’s crazy, so I did not dare; but when I tried, I got addicted to it. I feel complete and self sufficient, no longer needing anyone’s attention.
“It’s okay to Disappoint others by saying “NO” than be Disappointed in yourself in the end. Remember, you can always say “NO”.
Although at times, as humans, it is a part of us to seek attention from others; but to me, that is now an option, because I can give myself the attention I needed from others, yet it’s still different if others gave it to you. It’s actually nice and unique too to have someone to share things and thoughts with. I recently allowed someone to be himself without judgements, just letting him be and it felt great!
How amazing life can be to be free! After 6 years of focusing on myself only, not being selfish but just trying to do the things I really want alone, I felt satisfied. So when I started allowing others to join me or allowing myself to join them, I felt like I am doing something amazing! This time, we shared same vibes, unlike the people I have met in the past.
I felt like I have found my TRIBE, the community I wanted to be a part of. I’m happy! If you want to get what you want, either do it solo or be with like-minded people, people who can understand your frequency and your vibe. I considered myself new to this new world and it humbled me. I feel a little insecure but I am working on that, wanting to “Give Up & Runaway Again.” It has always been there, I just need to work on myself until I’d feel certain and assured.
I have quite few photos I took on my 1st (2023- Kang-Irag) 2nd (Alicia) 3rd (Kang-Irag) 4th (Pamutan, Spartan Trail, 6 Towers, RCPI, Sirao Statue); joining a team that made me feel like I belong! I am so blessed to have met all of them and considered them, “my tribe”. There are minor climbs and walks too that also made memories.
Since most of the time I’m doing things solo with guides like in “Panimahawa Ridge, Bukidnon,” “Kulago, Bukidnon,” I did “Mt. Manunggal, Quite many times.” Pamutan & Other Cute hiking trails. I’ve had friends who’s into “Marathons” and I’m so proud of them. I’ve had yearly run so far and I’m excited for next year. I will be participating in preparation for my major climbs. I will be running and jogging soon too!
Life had been so amazing surrounded by people who shared the same vibe as yours! So if you’d ever want to do things differently and want to get out of your fearful thoughts, then try doing things solo from scratch, using a little faith and a little self trust. If you can count 1,2,3, you can do it too! Challenge yourself; because in this world, if you won’t do it alone, it’s rare to get what you really want.
I have been with the best company in the world who supports talents, goals and dreams, not because I followed anyone but because I got inspired by one of their talents and I applied “Solo” with fear, and got so challenged and excited! I knew I’m with the best, so someday I will grow the best and that the goal from the very beginning, ability to find ways under pressure.
I have never thought I would be given the chance to learn from them and yet “I got in” anyway. All thanks to them that I got all the “Courage” in the world, knowing that they support and encourage, unlike my parents 🤫 who doesn’t care, just doing what they think is right for them, painful truth but it’s the truth. I wouldn’t be so thankful and grateful right now if it hadn’t happened. The Universe has its own way of making things happen for us to see the difference. So be grateful for all the goods and bad’s and to your guides!
See you around, “Ka-Tribu!” 😉
Climbing, Rocks! 