I had a rough day today. My anxieties got triggered. I cried like a baby, and hide underneath my desk, at work.
I have committed a mistake, and after admitting it, I was emotionally trapped in fear of the consequences.
Soon as I have arrived home, I shared it with my friend’s husband, and he acknowledged, it was indeed a huge mistake, but advised me to wait for the consequence.
I was relieved. He was right, I have to wait for whatever is coming my way.
What happened to me, getting triggered, was me, being impatient. I had false predictions of the future.
1st, before that notice happened, someone approached me for not wearing my mask appropriately.
It was only seconds after drinking my water; I thought he was going to give a disciplinary action but did not.
I was overreacting to the situation. But I waited, and he did not return to give me the notice; It was only a reminder, good for me.
I wasn’t quite sure what happened, but I felt a sense of fear coming from nowhere. It’s hard to breathe, I was so scared.
I can hear myself saying, “I am here now.” I’m sorry, pls forgive me, I love you; thank you! I forgive you. I forgive you.
It was probably because I had a coffee. But you see, I was mentally fine. I was emotional, I couldn’t almost accept the mistake I have done.
Lesson learned: To not assume; to consider the differences and to dig deeper if you see something mismatching. It’s okay to look, investigate more; because there is always almost more to it.
Don’t decide yet, based on what you see is matching, notice the difference . Go extra mile. Never be content with the view, find more; check more. Get to know it more. See more, do not judge.