Someone told me, if you’re scared of something, you better do it anyway; so I did. It’s liberating and it sets me free from everyone; so far, so good.
It’s kinda hard to live a fearful life; it’s easy to live free from negativities.
Let me tell you a story on how fear wasted my time…
But first, let me assure you that this isn’t a resentment; I’m happy, that I learned from it. Although, I still repeat the same mistakes, atleast I am learning from it, everytime.
So… back in 2013, I left college; I did not practice my degree yet. I decided to rest my mind from all those accounting stuffs; I wanted to learn something new…
…but that’s not the only reason, I was also scared that “What if” , I am not good enough. I did not give myself a chance to explore more in the accounting field.
I kept transferring from one workplace to another, to keep growing, to learn something new; I thought, accounting was already boring, but not only that…
… I actually hated it, I didn’t see its value, I didn’t see my future in it; for me, trying something new is always like a food to my soul…
… but there’s always this fear in me, that kept me away from the accounting field: it’s always this silent thought that ,”I’m not good enough.” I know nothing about it, I wasn’t ready.
Even if I knew and I have mastered some of those subjects, but I still feel not ready, scared to death; until I decided to face it anyway. If I have faced it before, I could have mastered it already, but I was hesitant…
So when I faced that, others were already ahead of me, and I got left behind. I went out for an adventure, learning new things but not really mastering it; I could have prioritized one thing, while I kept learning those other things.
My hunger for knowledge is not a bad thing, it is good; I am truly happy everytime I succeed with something; I felt truly alive everytime I finished a course and got an achievement…
… but everytime I received that, I wanted more, and that’s good. There’s just this something, I realized just lately, that when you put your learnings into action, you’ll see results.
Learn now, put it to action as fast as you can; do not be scared; trust yourself, face it! While you do something else for fun, you can do great things on your break time.
Lately, I applied that strategy, and it works magic. I did now, what I have not done before. I was so scared, but if I’ll stop something, I’ll also stop the other things; and when I allow something, the other thing will also be allowed.
Life is supposed to be open, both good and bad. Taking out the weed, will take out the good plants; so keep both, yin and yang, must go together. Let’s be both, let’s do both; not at the same time, but every after the other.
My coach once said, “you can do both.” I thought I can’t, so I didn’t try. I actually can. I let go of my fear of failure, completely; and became successful both ways! It is true, that when you have fun in everything that you do, you can handle it all, perfectly.
There’s no need to stop the other, you just have to be fully in the moment ,”NOW” when you’re handling something. When you shift your attention, put your presence there.
Now that I realized this works magic, I’m going to do something crazy next year. This is going to be a next level craziness. I’ll do both! It would be fun!
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