Today, I went out for a short hike. It’s been a month since I slowed down running, I have to. Change is constant and if you want to take a new turn, slowing down is a must to be redirected.
Last time, I also visited Camp Forrest In Mabini, Cebu. I looked alone but I knew I am not. You see me walking alone, camping alone, cooking alone, travelling alone, but I never was alone.
You won’t be alone too because I am right here with you. You may not see me in person but know that I am on earth too, writing this post in my bed, waiting for evening to see the sunset because it’s my rest day!
I can’t sleep either because I had the longest 12 hours sleep this year, last night. It healed a part of me that’s been suffering due to lack of sleep most of the days, I’m not sure why; I just can’t get my eyes and hands off my phone and everytime I think of camping, I would say, “I’m too tired for that.”
It seems like I have a self to deal with and who says “I’m alone?” We’re never alone. You have you. I have me. You are dealing with yourself too, so do I. No one is alone. If you think you are, then stop ignoring yourself; he/she needs your attention. Sometimes, you just have to bribe yourself to do what you have to do.
I was at Camp Forrest and I was very happy that I forced myself out from my own head and see the real world outside. It’s not that scary as others think it is.
I loved the scenery and I’m blessed by the good people who helped be achieved my goal. That was fantastic! I will not be tired of doing that again and again but I cannot guarantee, that’s what my mind said, my ego is saying something else, (repetitive, find something new).
I woke up with a smile, I was happy but I cannot stay longer like I wanted to, I must go back and work harder for my dreams. Leaving a happy place is always sad. I shall return, soon as I can; but my other self wants a new place to go, somewhere safe, somewhere cold and somewhere my heart felt welcomed and accepted.
I missed this place already and next time I’ll visit there, I will bring lots of food to cook. I will have so much fun eating and story telling with my phone recording. It may sound boring but listening to yourself speaking, letting her thoughts out will help you understand yourself better.
Sometimes, you have to learn to say “NO” even if you really2x wanted to keep doing what makes you happy and comfortable, because it’s not helping you grow. Happy place can make you stagnant too; so it’s okay to miss the place and even miss the place even more. I know it’s not running away, nor will it be taken away.
It belongs to the owner and I’m so thankful and grateful that I’m allowed to visit the place and stay for a night. It was more than good enough. Memories of it makes my heart feel loved and lucky. How lucky I was last year and this year to have camped to more than 5 places in Cebu, thrice, twice, including Bukidnon.
I’ll always treasure the memories and visit there again whenever I’m happy. Whenever I’m happy. Whenever I’m happy. Whenever I’m happy. I guess I know now what to be in order to go back to the places that made me happy. I’ll just be happy
Whenever you’re sad, remember that I’m just right here waiting for you, just like those places waiting for me to visit again. Separation is just an illusion of the mind. How can we be separated when we’re living on same earth. Maybe there is blockages but blockages are just temporary, you’ll always see the sun shining in the morning.
I’m maybe off and disconnected, because I’m not seeing you, nor you seeing me; but I’m never far away from you. I’m always around, you just have to find me, visit me, stay for awhile then you may go on your own way. I will be visiting Mt. Manunggal again, with Mt. Apo in mind. I hoped to connect with the guides in spirit first before going. See you!
I hope to see you in one of my camping adventures. Say “Hi” because I’m shy. I will only smile but you can always ask me anything, I’ll see what I can do. Don’t be scared, there’s no need to. If you know your intention is good, then you’re fine. It will be fine, the door is always open for you. I still hope even if it felt impossible to see you in 3D.
Climbing, Rocks! 