Overcoming My Anxiety Disorder

I’m well aware of my social anxieties and I did something to conquer it.

I remember how scared I was to be gossiped about that I stopped myself from expressing.

It was horrifying that I got disgusted overtime. I had to do something.

I started with writing a book in which I tried being authentic. But still edited it like I am storytelling someone else’s story different from me as a writer.

After that, I started exercising, walking, running, but basically it’s just all walking.

I had to conquer my fear of heights and my fear of doing things on my own.

After my first broke up that teared me apart. I kept on exercising.

Instead of dwelling and constantly reacting to my negative thoughts, I decided to get out from it by being present.

Last year 2018, I started conquering my fears by crossing the mactan new bridge every early morning.

I also started visiting new places that I haven’t been before.

I allowed “Mamang” to help me financially with my Caregiving Training Program.

Later on, I passed the program and got a job related to Business.

I conquered my fear of criticism by making myself vulnerable to them.

I had to be honest so she helped me; then soon as I was already determined to return back to work and earn again, then slowly I paid my dues.

I went through self acceptance, feeling the pain, but never blame.

I told myself, “Yes! I made the choice to satisfy my curiosity. Humanly speaking, it was revolting, embarrassing, degrading; and of course if I have chosen self-pity over self-acceptance, self-help and self-love; I would have given up on life.

Yet, the people who have looked down on me and looked so highly of themselves just because they have not done anything unusual remained unhappy, unfulfilled and inexperienced.

Yes they hated me for that but their emotional problems and inabilities are none of my business.

Perception and understanding is something that can only be learned by them, you cannot spoon-feed them.

I am still lucky and blessed to be surrounded by highly professional people, like me, who can understand the purpose why I decided to do a certain thing.

One day, I’m gonna show them why. But right now, let me show you how I started my journey towards overcoming my anxiety disorders.

TRAVELLING ON MY OWN-

#1 Kartzone

I used to be so scared to do it on my own that my plans keeps getting delayed.

I had so much fear at the back of my mind. I had negative advises in every wants that I have.

So I developed a mentality, that if I’m not going to try it now, I’ll remain stocked, stagnant and not living at all.

It felt like “Waiting” forever without preparing for what is to come.

It felt scary to always try something new, but when I started it, everytime I accomplished something new, it is as if I have added 10 yrs of my life.

So I went to KartZone and tried driving for the first time. That time, I realized that you don’t have to know everything in order to achieve something.

All we need to get going is our ability to follow instructions. To trust in our guides and to be thankful and grateful.

I had so much fun learning along the way. I didn’t have to take all the driving courses, I just followed the instruction.

I’d like to insert how powerful following instructions are even at work. I realized that there’s nothing to be afraid of. Worries are just there to test your determination.

If your determination is weak, you will easily give up, but if you’re going to think of the goal and the good outcome that you set for yourself, you’ll always win.

Others won’t walk with you when invited, not because your goal is bad; it’s not your fault, they just don’t have the guts to make it happen. But you do, so show them.

#2 JPARK PLACE

It was my 28th birthday. I was so emotional because I had no one to celebrate it with me.

I have invited few old acquaintances from college, but they said NO to me. I got so many rejections whenever others are needed.

I knew how supportive I am to their events. When invited, I am going, not because I liked it but because it will make them feel special.

Oh, it was fun! I had so much fun deciding to celebrate on my own. It’s my first time getting in to Jpark and having fun! The sadness went away.

Doing things on my own made me realized that I’m so much better without them. I am the happiest, the calmest, totally at peace. It is true!

So to say, I am actually amazing. I am just in denial because others can’t do it on their own, but I can? So why not! They said, “You cannot teach a fish to fly. ”

I finally find someone so supportive. Who understands the Value of what I’m doing. Who pushed me up and encourages me to do better. Also, he cares, not just to me but to everyone. I’m just blessed and I’ll always remember him. I hope I’m allowed to hold him or like be close to him. I want my freedom and I think I deserve it.

#3 SNOW WORLD

It has been set, I have already been there before it happened. Nothing and no one can stop me from achieving my goals.

The bad reviews doesn’t count. We have different experiences, different life goals and different reactions to situations.

So I went! Inside, it was nice. I was really having fun gliding with the kids. I had to go separate ways to fulfill my life goal.

I had coffee inside. I felt the cold breeze. Doing it alone was so quiet. So silent. I am just amazed. I can still feel the cold. The different environment makes me feel welcomed and renewed.

Everytime I experience new things in life, there is always life in it. Life and the confidence that builds up becomes our greatest weapon to achieve our dreams.

#4Casino Peak

We went there after revisiting the osmena peak in Dalaguete.

We had a coffee, but I ended up eating my colleagues food.

It was yummy! These two are the best friends. The mother and son dou’s the best.

Thanks for the free taxi ride and the for being so generous to me.

You guys are the best company and I want to keep up the travels with you.

The support that we have was the best. It was so exciting and so open.

I have finished the goal and I was able to reach the summit.

I am going to post videos soon in my Instagram account.

Enjoy watching! Let us hear your thoughts about overcoming anxiety disorders. Or if you’re inspired to start facing your fears now, share it with us in the comment section below. Know that you’re not alone 🙃👌

See ya!