After a year, I have finally visited back the beautiful Camp Adela. I still remember my first time camping solo was very interesting. It was only me and the owner’s trusted worker; t’was not raining however it’s so windy and so cold.
I slept in a hammock because I choose to not because nobody offered, “the kind gentleman have been trying to help me get in a tent for free but I did not allow kind offerings, it’s not that I cannot pay, I’m not used to freebies without giving anything in return,” I don’t want to owe from anyone. I woke up stargazing and was having fun counting falling stars. I have never thought I would see that many falling stars in my life. If I remember it exactly, it’s around 40 in counting. It was a crazy day and yet very memorable.
Back then, I wished I would be able to see the fireworks from the top and I wished I would be able to trek going up the bottom! Those wishes happened in year 2024, as fast as 1 month after. Things changed and it made my dream possible. Deciding to climb up Camp Adela was the best climb ever, and I would always be thankful and grateful to Jo and the guide for that 10 star advise. “Do not go left and right, just follow the trail going up, follow the towers and you’ll get there.”
We made it to the top that night and we’re so lucky we came out alive! No snakes encounter. We’re being monitored and we’re safe! One day, I will climb again but with a group of people or whenever the trail will be developed. For now, let’s go somewhere higher and I’m already thinking about either Mt. Apo in Davao, Mt. Pulag in Baguio or Mt. Kitanglad in Bukidnon.
New year 2024, as I was watching the fireworks, I thought of going back to Camp Adela to get a clearer version of its view! Months after, I finally found the courage to buy a better version of my phone with the help of my trusted friend’s support! While others suggests, he made me do it! See the difference between support versus suggestions?
Anyway, I’m proud of me and I’m always thankful and grateful to “YOU”, I really hope he’s single, I could have flirted like a younger version of me hahahaha. Shh. Shh. Just kidding! I’m just so thankful and I grateful because I know that he has my best interest at heart not an insult but a real support. People like them is the best and I’m so blessed I met that one of a kind. His name is a Secret because he will be reading this but he already knew that I’m referring to him. “Thank you L!”
Slowly, I have been attracting real people and I am slowly seeing the differences between the people who genuinely cares. Like how I felt safe at Camp Adela because I knew that someone’s watching and I am not alone because someone’s really eager to talk unconditionally. He could be a very good sales person and an entertainer too. It seems like the staffs have been chosen based on their personalities. I’m simply lucky and blessed to have made friends.
Delays were simply blessing in disguise because my original booking was March 09, 2025; for whatever reason, my phone’s did not ring and I was not able to wake up on time, so I ended up rescheduling my trip the next day. Luckily, I was given the chance to reschedule, all thanks to Camp Adela for your kindness.
Somehow, the Universe wanted me to travel morning the following day so that I will be able to experience not just midnight and dawn but afternoon and evening as well. I had the best afternoon because I had a free drink. This is not always but I recieved a free treat from the staffs!
Fresh Coconut fruit was real and I was served. I’m so thankful and grateful! The place is abundant with plants, Jackfruit, Star-fruit, Bananas, Etc. It is simply good to have good friends around. Being surrounded by real people who talks about real stuffs not just business but real connection. It’s amazing how amazing that experience was!
Was it because I was with the right people or was it because I was alone? It seems that I’m so happy whenever I’m free and not thinking nor considering anybody. Just like a child who’s not worried about anything but being happy doing the things that they love.
For me, it was reading, taking photographs, modeling, showing happy faces on camera, and now I hope to be back recording me dancing something cool or maybe playing an instrument like a Piano or a Guitar. I also love the idea of cooking my own food and experimenting, it’s really interesting when you’re doing things outside of your comfort zone.
Imagine waking up everyday seeing just like the photos above. Seeing the busy cities and people chasing the time, while you’re making your own time, free from pressures and deadlines. Now that’s a beautiful life! I am so lucky I have experienced that at Camp Adela. A place where natural timing exist, not forced. Waking up on time without an alarm was awesome!
As I was reflecting, I saw things clearly. I realized that I have been so mean to my Single Mother, being so selfish and unsupported of her relationships. It’s not because she’s not introducing me to them as her daughter, is it? Well, that’s one of those. I wanted someone to be proud of me and it seems like I’ve been failing them, so that’s probably why.
But hey, I realized one good thing. She’s free and she has her own life, things to learn, pain to process, self to forgive, etc. She’s human too, we must be more understanding to our parents because they have through a lot regardless if they’re causing it to themselves, they’re still going through a lot. Have compassion.
Ah, not just to my mother but to my Father too, for sure he had lots of regrets too, specially that he didn’t bother supporting me at all at school, barely even attending school meetings, and it’s painful and shameful specially when your own mother will bring that topic; she thinks she’s different from him, even if she’s been busy chasing money and I was left helping myself. When your parents need parenting and you’re still a child to understand their adult problems, thank goodness I’m grown up now!
It’s diffinitely not about me but about themselves. They have tried their best to be parents at that young age for sure. It must be very hard raising the child me with all my tantrums. My father’s may have been in so much and tired with me on his back like a monkey while he’s toiling the farm land. My mother must have been so confused when I wanted something and I am not saying it ðŸ¤.
Until now she’s still figuring out what I really wanted, haha. “I’m doing it now, she’s not supporting it anyway!” All I wanted as a child is a clean and safe comfort room which was too much to request because they’re busy all the time. I just wanted to poop, that’s all I want and I’m so shy to tell her because she doesn’t look like a mother and she’s as strict like a tiger and soft like an actress. Worst thing was she looks and act like a sister or an aunt, and she’s a bully too, like I never felt mothered by her ever!
One thing I learned from her though is that I must not run away from the truth and I must face it, accept what had already happen and change the direction of my life by changing me instead of attracting the same type of people she has been running away from. No matter how many times she would deny everything, she cannot hide from the Universe. It will haunt her until she change herself. I am praying that one day, she will realize that and change on her own will.
I learned to forgive myself for being angry at myself whenever people doesn’t listen. I learned to accept that it’s not always about me, and I’m not always the reason why other people suffer. Most of the times, it’s them denying themselves, not accepting their faults and blaming it towards others. Moreover, their decisions were their choices and it must be respected because they have the right to be who they wanted to be. But remember that you deserve self respect too.
You deserve self respect too. So if you’re holding back right now for others sake, then think again. Would you rather be like them in the end, or would you have courage to change the things they cannot change within them, not because they can’t, but because they simple think they can’t. They think they can’t so they did not do even if they’re capable of doing. It must be too painful for them and too shameful they think they cannot handle the result.
Although it’s hard but it’s diffinitely doable. It may not be overnight, but it will diffinitely happen. You may not see big progress yet, but with patience, everything is possible. Seed when planted is a healthy soil grows healthy in time. One day you will harvest, just keep an eye on your self and be mindful, always make conscious efforts to change your mentality, from a self criticism into a self ally. Spoil yourself if you must, you deserve everything you can think of, just trust the process.
My self anger and frustration of my weaknesses may not dissolve overnight, but one day it will. Even a hard soil will soften when you start toiling it. I will diffinitely become the person I wanted to be, happy and free! Less worries and anxieties! Nothing is impossible if you start doing it little by little. Learn to move on, face that internal struggles, sit with that emotion, stop running away from yourself. Be there for her/him instead of repeating the same mistakes your ancestors/parents once did. You can do it! You can change mentality. You can love yourself. You can forgive yourself. You can give yourself a chance. You deserve good things no matter how sinful you are, says the Lord!
Our coach once asked us, “Can you tie your shoe laces?” If you can do that, then you can do more. Just do it! 👣 See you! #meu #together #wecandoit #juststartnow
Climbing, Rocks! 