If only I knew what I know today

If given the chance to go back in time where ego is not an option, I will accept defeat and move on. “It’s not for me, so why force it?” I have lived my life proving myself I’m good enough. I thought I wasn’t because I was being rejected, but it wasn’t true. I wasContinue reading “If only I knew what I know today”

Accept the Unacceptable; Your choices now, changes the generations of the future

As I’m getting older, I’m getting wiser. I am slowly understanding the reason behind the troubles and the hardships that I have to endure in order to get to where I wanted to be at. I used to complain and even until now I still feel like complaining, although I am more in control withContinue reading “Accept the Unacceptable; Your choices now, changes the generations of the future”

It’s okay to be sad; pain is temporary

Lately, I have been reading a book about anxiety; it talks about losses and grieving and I feel like writing about my own losses and the beginning of my great anxiety. Writing it down is believed to alleviate anxieties. My anxieties started that time my mother brought my dying uncle home. I was so scaredContinue reading “It’s okay to be sad; pain is temporary”

What will happen if you care too much? Exactly! You’ll be mistaken!

Caring is fine, but not too much! Too much of everything will make you a bad person. Only give what was asked; not too much! This is a lesson I learned from my caregiving assessment. Only do, what was ask of you. The thing is that, if you’re going to give too much medicine, itContinue reading “What will happen if you care too much? Exactly! You’ll be mistaken!”

What are you thankful for today? Have you stopped denying the truth too?

Things to be thankful for today: 2. I saw a Facebook page advertising about Waterfront Fun Run Activity to Celebrate Love this Valentines and 21K run is offered. I have been longing for this since my last run last April 2023. I will really register! Come what may! 3. I finally claimed my running shirt!Continue reading “What are you thankful for today? Have you stopped denying the truth too?”

Connecting the Dots: Looking Back

I just watched Steve Jobs speech about his career and I’m moved and inspired. I learned “Connecting the Dots” by looking backward in order to make sense of your past rejections as well as failures. I learned that doing things NOW to start your success is a really smart choice and you know why. PeopleContinue reading “Connecting the Dots: Looking Back”

Accept that it’s not the thing you’re passionate about; accept your redirection

We’re almost at the end of December, and then January comes next; this is a month where we start another whole year and another whole month to get through. There maybe a lot of mental roadblocks this year but I’m glad to say I’m able to get through it; quick decisions, trusting my gut feeling,Continue reading “Accept that it’s not the thing you’re passionate about; accept your redirection”

Let’s play, “Now, I have” to end year 2023 full of gratitude

Now I have seen 42 shooting stars; In the past I barely see one. Now I have travelled more than two places alone; in the past, I barely travel to one. Now I have trust in my guts; in the past, I thought it will bring me shame because it’s related to pooping. Now IContinue reading “Let’s play, “Now, I have” to end year 2023 full of gratitude”

Don’t change analysis; not everything needs change

Rest days had gone, I’m thankful and grateful for the time I spent with me, reading, cooking, washing clothes, talking with acquaintances and of course writing anything I can think of. I’m done with travelling for this year, but maybe I will do one or two more in December 2023. I just want to seeContinue reading “Don’t change analysis; not everything needs change”

I got rejected and bought this Airbed instead

Right now, I’m on top of my airbed. This is a gift that I gave myself early this year from the gifts I received last year. I wouldn’t have bought this airbed if my offer was not rejected. To make the long story short, I chased someone not worthy of my time. Rejections are reallyContinue reading “I got rejected and bought this Airbed instead”