I used to hope and dream that this person will appreciate me; that he will choose me; that he will be proud of me; I was one step to becoming a beggar of love and attention. It was so hard, it was affecting my everything; while he was so happy gossiping about me, humiliating meContinue reading “You just need one step to experience your dreams; trust yourself, you can do it!”
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It’s hard to find something to be thankful for, but it’s possible with little things
Focusing on good things really gave me this feeling of this undefinable excitement, it makes me do the things I really want to do, it helps me grow and become the person I really wanted to be. Despite of the rejections and the triggers that I get, I manage to redirect myself to the rightContinue reading “It’s hard to find something to be thankful for, but it’s possible with little things”
You have the right to be loved, to be happy and to become successful
Regardless if your parents have separated ways, regardless of how broke they are and how messy their individual life is, you must remember that ‘it’s none of your business’ go create a better life, and live a life different from theirs. Until now, I still feel hesitant in going all out, considering others feelings andContinue reading “You have the right to be loved, to be happy and to become successful”
Who says you’re alone? Geez, you’re surrounded by people
So, to make the long story short, I spent my rest day, travelling, trekking and camping on my own. I was upset because the Driver going to Opon mocked me of not giving the change to the other passenger. I honestly did not noticed I actually took two change for twenty. Eight each! Where didContinue reading “Who says you’re alone? Geez, you’re surrounded by people”
Smile because you get through it, despite the shame and the pain
Lately, I had been sad; I knew it whenever I am spinning. My hands twirling, it helped me feel conscious everytime my paranoid self is operating. A thought of, “What if I’m wrong, what am I going to do.” A feeling of distrust after formulating a very good idea that already worked. My paranoid selfContinue reading “Smile because you get through it, despite the shame and the pain”
How Going To Gym, Dancing and writing helped me forgive
Being a product of a broken family, sometimes I feel unsafe when surrounded by people I don’t know; I have so much traumas specially in getting into relationship, may it be romantic, friendship or just a casual acquaintance. This fear of being bullied and judged if people knew my family background and how they lookedContinue reading “How Going To Gym, Dancing and writing helped me forgive”
Silence is the master key
My childhood hadn’t been good, but compared to others, it’s a little bit better; however, I am still struggling with family shame to this date. Everytime I hear or feel people acting like my parents and my parents parents, I get triggered and it’s so hard to really pull myself up together after being hit.Continue reading “Silence is the master key”
Keeping yourself sane
I had so much triggers when it comes to self pity. People ignoring me, so I learned to observe them. People judging me based on my family history, so I learned to make things right. Not to prove them wrong, but to show them that I am one of the 1% type of people whoContinue reading “Keeping yourself sane”
Tomorrow is not promised, so be happy now
Lately, I have been negatively self-sabotaging. I get emotional because of my own critical thoughts about my own doings. I’ve been so hard to me and it made me feel like being so dumb, even if I am totally not that dumb. Yes, I made mistakes and for me it’s not good to not worryContinue reading “Tomorrow is not promised, so be happy now”
Disappointments teach lessons
The first time I had the worse disappointment was back in college. I enrolled in an accountancy program without prior knowledge about what that degree is about. I had no idea how hard it is. Despite my ignorance, I still get in. I enrolled myself and I was like a kindergarten learning about new accountingContinue reading “Disappointments teach lessons”
Climbing, Rocks! 