Sometimes, I have this fear of repeating the same mistakes my parents did in the past with their relationship. Instead of facing the shame about that, and feeling this family guilt, I would run away and act like I don’t exist. But because I am a grown-up woman now, running away is no longer anContinue reading “When the future scares you, stay in the moment”
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This is how you upgrade your life
When I was a child, I had a father who’s always leaving me behind. He’s always gone and I’m always seeking for his attention. Everytime I asked of him to stay and wait outside our ugly comfort-room, he would answer me with an angry voice, he’s always like that. I feel like I’m always unwanted.Continue reading “This is how you upgrade your life”
Why pursue the things that scares you
Big things are scary, it always will be; yet behind that feeling is a big dream waiting for you; all you have to do is take that first step, be there and be present. Easy pissy, but the thought of change is overwhelming and yet it’s the only way to move forward. Yes, I wasContinue reading “Why pursue the things that scares you”
How to handle anxieties by by believing in too good to be true
My anxieties became worst year 2015; with my first personal relationship. The thought of the future makes me feel anxious because I was a negative thinker. So I changed my thinking; everytime I think of the future, I only think of thinks that are too good to be true. I have decided that even ifContinue reading “How to handle anxieties by by believing in too good to be true”
Building Trust
This week ends well with this powerful message from Neil. He said, “The key to success is to relax.” Isn’t that true? I believe so. I think I will be attending a gathering later. Life is an adventure, we must spend it well with the people we trust; and the people were going to surroundContinue reading “Building Trust”
Your direction is most important than your speed
Hey, today, I participated in a fun-run to celebrate the love month. It went successfully. I got my medal and I had been taking photos to those who wants pictures. Of course using their phones. I was like a volunteer, and it made me feel so useful. I was only standing there because I wantContinue reading “Your direction is most important than your speed”
Think what’s next, instead of what’s not
I learned so much about my life experiences, and one of the best lesson I have, is to think what’s next instead of what’s not. Sometimes, people overthink too much. When “What’s not” is being triggered, they often gets stuck. Overthinking about the past that’s related to what’s not. I realized, that it’s a wasteContinue reading “Think what’s next, instead of what’s not”
True Love is painful. Better than words full of lies
Love is a melody. It speaks, you just have to listen. Sometimes, it can be manipulating, but it’s worth the emotional pain. I am scared, this is the sign I needed. I loved a man, I don’t even know him yet. He looks handsome, but strict like a wise man. He sound like a father,Continue reading “True Love is painful. Better than words full of lies”
BOM by rmi, channelled by me
Thrilling, exciting, loving, professional but not friendly. Shows me what I asked for. He listens , he writes, he speaks. He’s always with me through all the good and bad. The one that answers the hard questions. The one who kept me sane. The one who understands my brain. He make bold decisions. The oneContinue reading “BOM by rmi, channelled by me”
Trust your self, say no to self doubt
Being curious is another key to learn more, but sometimes curiosity is not necessary specially when you’re seeking more self validation. Sometimes, curiosity is a waste of time, because most of the time you are right about your judgements. But of course, let’s be honest, it’s always better to dig deeper in order to knowContinue reading “Trust your self, say no to self doubt”
Climbing, Rocks! 